04/19/2024 09:10 PM  [Roleplay Info] I don't do connections, or limit my character to one love interest. I am multi-ship. Meaning every story is separate. I'm part of this dying breed of roleplayers. So if you're single-ship, there's the door. Here, I am seeking a male character willing (unwillingly for more tension) to undergo a turbulent, long-term relationship. Amy may be a royal pain, but she promises not to be boring. If swayed correctly, she can be loyal and assertive. She wields the ability to soften most hearts. Unable to deliberately hurt anyone, the few times she did, Amy was as drunk as a skunk. I can be swayed toward a plot involving Amy in a short-term romance with another female character. The twist could be a male character of your choice coming into the story to fall in love with Amy. Putting her promiscuous lifestyle to rest has proven to be a real challenge so far for her. But Amy has found very few men she has dated are willing to love her for her, not her high social status. That goes for friendships, those who hang around her for what she has, and nothing more. What she wants more than anything in the world is to be a mother. But she has a lot of work on her plate to finish. First and foremost, her dependency on alcohol. Amy drinks to get through her day-to-day life, seldom is she seen sober. For several years now she has been engaged in a seesaw battle with anorexia and bulimia. Eating disorders and alcoholism are slowly killing her, and she is running out of time. But when you're depressed enough, your self-awareness plummets. Over the years, Amy had experienced several attempts at rehabilitation, but they all led to relapse after relapse. She had already achieved victory over her addiction to crack and heroin three years prior. The right motivation and a roadmap to improve her life are the key. Independence is one major thing she needs to find some happiness. That is if she no longer needs to be babysat by friends or her bodyguards because she cannot look after herself. Recklessness almost cost her life numerous times previously. Once being married to a trainwreck had no positive influence. I'm not opposed to the idea of Amy potentially exploring other genres of music. Gravitating her toward rock has been on my mind. Vocals aside, she is quite skilled on the guitar, the bass, and recently, she took up learning the drums. She is a fast learner who loves picking up new skills. I don't want to make a bunch of rules. Just don't be a dlck. I do not intend to sound like one, but I get sick and tired of repeating myself. I only write in the third person and past tense. I'd very much prefer you did, too. First-person is a dealbreaker for me. It's creepy. If you cannot at least write more than two engaging paragraphs, I don't think we will be a fit. I do believe in quality over quantity, but there isn't much you can put in liners to keep me invested. No in-character chat in DMs. I'd like plot and write there. If you're an engaging novella writer, that's a big plus for me. However, if you cannot at least try to mirror my effort, then f*** off. Don't waste my time. Also, I'm fine with friends I don't write with! 0 Comments

04/19/2024 09:05 PM  [About the Admin] Female, 26 years old. I have been roleplaying for over ten years and have been in roleplaying communities for five. I started learning to read at a very young age, and aced spelling bees in school. I had a college reading level by the time I was in fourth grade. However, PTSD, dyslexia, and memory loss have hindered my reading and writing abilities a bit. If I stop replying to you it's likely because my mind is too occupied, or simply, I find you boring. Not introducing yourself and shooting me a mundane "Hey, how's it going" or "I'm interested, I'll do anything" isn't going to get my attention. I need much more than that. What tickles your fancy, what you want from a roleplay partner, all that good stuff. It seems like many roleplayers are just f***ing clueless about themselves as writers, uncreative, and stick to what is popular. It's a huge bore. If I don't know what character you're using, don't expect me to develop ideas by myself. I've done enough of that sh*t. You need to put the work in, too. I don't get this trend of having "adaptable" characters and then having no clue how you're doing to fit them in each story. that is why cemented roleplay muses are an option. You can't please everyone. I don't roleplay to date! You wanna be friends? Cool. Nothing more. Stop hitting on me out of character. I'm taken in real life and I'm not a cheater. 0 Comments

04/07/2024 03:38 PM  [♪] When My Eyes ♪] Waitress on skates, in trainin' They dart to call it dreaming Images present themselves to me Seeds are ripe for reapin' I continue sleepin' You're everything you ever wanted to be And nothing here is changing No messy rearranging Cause every set of ficus stays the same Sinatra's always singing And you do all the clinging And someone else accepts my place Whatever my imagination throws So rugged, growing rose When my eyes do close When my eyes do close  When they close   Turn and face my ceiling Deep in all the feeling Inhibitions turn to dust and fly away Stop my eyelids flickering With your petty bickering But this I must say,  What I got to say I hear my girl Dinah's playin' And tree branches start swayin' Run over and sit right by the roof And I see the lips are growing Little buds are showing Reach out a hand And bite into the fruit Whatever my imagination throws So rugged, growing rose When my eyes do close When my eyes do close When they close Nothin' such a scrutiny  Voiding purple mutual  You are loving beautifully And it's fragrant beautifully Colorful and monochrome Amy Winehouse alone Far away from ringing phone at home I turn to stone, turn to stone And all the thoughts are static Yeah, my singing is automatic And I wish that I could sell it in my every urge you tell her Cause I can sense no danger I am the lone ranger Through the desert in a yellow caddy With a black haired blue eyed stranger White dress outside drying I've been fear for flying I overtake Montgomery in skills, yeah Never been more daring Kitten heels I'm wearing Reality a blow that sometimes kills   When I drop it lyrically Worlds evolve generically And I don't ever need to collapse in tears And I could curse your timing Thunderously miming And I feel young beyond my years Whatever my imagination throws  So rugged, growing rose When my eyes do close When my eyes do close When they close.... 0 Comments

04/07/2024 03:28 PM  [♪ Alcoholic Logic ♪] Alcoholic Logic Swinging back and forth A beautiful thing taking you away My head is spinning My girl tried to stop me But I had a taste of you Unfamiliar surroundings Left me wanting something new Physically you ain't my type But you're one of a kind So subconsciously on purpose I left my coat behind I can't help it, need to stop it All that I put myself through Everyone is so denying Yeah, it's nice to meet you, too I hate my alcoholic logic As I write this on the train Victoria's Secret in my bag And my thighs ache again Last night tips into my mind Through the puddle in my head I always get what I want I think I even said I can't help it, need to stop it All that I put myself through Everyone is so denying Yeah, it's nice to meet you, too I hate my alcoholic logic Although I enjoyed it I should have tied up my loose ends But I left my jacket with you And you know my friends So maybe you will get my number Or ask them when I'm ached down But I may have forgotten you By the next time I'm in town I can't help it, need to stop it All that I put myself through Everyone is so denying Yeah, it's nice to meet you, too I hate my alcoholic logic   0 Comments

04/06/2024 11:03 PM  [Random Facts About Amy] Quite skilled in acrobatics. She can do flips, cartwheels, swing on trapezes, and walk a tightrope. Has an IQ of 156. She mastered advanced mathematics at a premature age. Has broken both of her hands several times. Twice as a child. She did, and still does, punch walls out of fury. Nobody taught Amy how to sing or play guitar, she learned those skills on her own. She is a fast learner with great long-term memory. Currently has three collections of women's fashion done with Fred Perry. Has cheated death countless times. The Magen David necklace that Amy often wears around her neck has been in her possession since early infancy, a gift from a synagogue in London. Only a few years ago did she start to wear it regularly. Gradually, her faith in the Jewish religion is recovering. The Winehouse family has resided in London since the late 19th century and is the only family in the area with the name, stemming from a generation of Ashkenazi Jews who escaped Russia to avoid antisemitic prosecution. It is a unique surname of German and Yiddish origin. Amy learned the drums in under a year. She owns a kit that she uses in her home to exhaust her frustrations. Her mind needs to be kept occupied so she doesn't fall into a deep depression. Whether it be finishing dozens of sudoku and crossword puzzle books or writing more songs. Is a great cook, and often makes meals for others rather than herself. Amy is a sufferer of borderline personality disorder.   0 Comments

04/05/2024 08:51 PM  [Plots, if you can call them that. WIP.] He Protects Me It can be a little difficult not to develop feelings for those big men who put their lives on the line to keep you safe. A friendship, or something deeper will come out of it. Amy's chief bodyguard was fired because of his inability to watch her like he should have. She needed someone who at least checked up on her hourly. The client could barely look after herself, whether at home or not. By now, she was so adapted to being looked after, that combined with her recklessness was a deadly mix. The Personal Assistant A PA was not exactly something Amy has had throughout her career. Her best friend from secondary school, Tyler James, filled that role without any desire for profit. Previously, only one literal personal assistant worked with Winehouse, but her heavy drug use and drinking at the time drove him off. But now, maybe it's time for another chance during a period where Amy is regaining control over her life. Though unprofessional, romance can spark organically. 0 Comments

03/30/2024 11:05 PM  N$FW Bold: like Italic: Maybe Bold Italic: Favorite  Habits  Is submissive // is dominant // prefers to top // prefers to bottom // likes to switch // identifies as heterosexual //  identifies as homosexual // identifies as bisexual // enjoys sex with men // enjoys sex with women // enjoys sex with multiple people at once // initiates // waits for partner to initiate // spits // swallows // prefers sex in the morning // prefers sex at night // prefers sex anytime // no sex drive // low sex drive // average sex drive // high sex drive // fluctuating sex drive    Body/Appearance  Small build // medium build // athletic build // muscular build // curvy build // voluptuous build // wears boxers // wears lingerie // goes ‘commando’ // shaves/waxes // doesn’t shave/wax // cup size a-c // cup size d-f // 1-5” in length // 6-9“ in length // 10” or over in length // circumcised //uncircumcised  Sounds  Is silent/makes little to no sounds // is very quiet // is very loud // grows in volume over time // bites partner // pillow to muffle themselves // calls out partner’s name // curses // fakes or exaggerates // prefers a quiet partner // prefers a loud partner // is turned on by dirty talk // is turned off by vulgar talk  Turn ons / Kinks  Having their hands pinned // pinning their partner’s hands // having their hair pulled // pulling their partner’s hair // being watched by partner // being watched by third party // watching their partner // receiving oral // giving oral // calling their partner ‘daddy’ // being called ‘daddy’ // giving praise // receiving praise // biting/marking // being bitten/marked // spanking // being spanked // teasing // being teased // toys used on them // using toys on partner // giving anal // receiving anal // being rimmed // rimming // choking // being choked // being tied up // tying their partner up // being worshiped // worshiping their partner // humiliating // being humiliated // degrading // being degraded // knife play // blood play 0 Comments

03/28/2024 03:17 PM  [The Misunderstood Jazz Diva] Contrary to what the tabloids wanted people to believe about Amy, beneath that beehive that works as her security blanket, is a tough woman. A hard shell, with soft insides. Outside of her persona, her real self craves to love and be loved. Her fame was unexpected. Fame is not something that you can just escape from. Unsure how to handle superstardom, she does her best to adjust. She is not materialistic or uptight, easy to please. Her crude sense of humor holds little boundaries. No matter the mood, she finds the time to crack a joke or two to lighten everyone else. Amy can be brutally honest with little thought of the feelings of others but is a very loyal friend who would give you the jacket off her back. Despite everything she had been through, she held on tight to her humanity the best she could, not allowing herself to be seduced by her riches. Often, her money was used for charity work. Any awards she has won, she had given to her mother. "These are for you, Mum." Since she divorced Blake Fielder-Civil, Amy has been clean from heroin and crack for the last three years. Pot and alcohol are how she copes with her dwindling mental state. Substance abuse led to her breasts shrinking greatly, so she acquired implants in 2009 to improve her body image. Amy did dream of fame since she was very young, but what she aspires to more than anything in the world is to mother children. Several of them. Winehouse's biggest weakness is love. When a man makes her heart flutter, he becomes a part of it. She has tattoos for two of her previous lovers. Amy is very affectionate and clingy. Unfortunately in the past, her romances have damaged her friendships. Winehouse would throw herself under the bus for someone she loved. Fight tooth and nail for them. There are few lengths Amy wouldn't go. Including die for them. An alcoholic and a chain-smoker since she was twelve, Amy was taught from a young age that chemicals are how you mend yourself. Not to talk it out with someone. For the majority of her life, Amy never believed in therapy, only substances, prescribed or not.  Just recently has her opinion on other forms of treatment changed. Smoking marijuana and listening to The Beatles helped keep her sane in her mid-teens. Longing for her absent father since the age of nine and recovering from a traumatic event, a bit too much happened early in her life that resulted in her becoming a turbulent woman. Her mother was too soft on her, on top of that, Janis Winehouse was a sufferer of multiple sclerosis and would not be diagnosed until 2003. Amy has been a sufferer of low self-esteem and eating disorders since she was a teenager. She indulged in self-harm by slashing her arms (sometimes her chest), a bad habit that worsened when fame entered her life and many judged her from head to toe. A few times she almost bled out. Amy had been frequently called ugly by the press and she started to accept it for a long time. Her bulimia became anorexia, so Amy dropped a lot of weight and felt a bit satisfied with her body.  I may extend this in the near future. 0 Comments

03/27/2024 10:48 PM  Has Your Muse Ever... (bold what applies, italics if something could happen or will in the future but hasn't yet in storyline.) broken a bone // had a near death experience // been cheated on // killed someone // tried to kill someone // been raped // felt raped // self harmed // been married // had a child // adopted // been bullied // told a horrible lie // stolen something // seen a ghost // been camping // overdosed on drugs // been drunk // been to a haunted location // passed out // kissed the same sex // kissed the opposite sex // lost a limb // cheated // bullied // broken the law // invented something // punched someone in the face // been beaten up // been admitted to hospital // been drugged // had sex // had sex and regretted it // done drugs // smoked // kissed someone they weren’t attracted to // bled severely // been shot // had an attempt on their life // made an attempt on their own life // lost someone // loved someone // had a pet // lost a pet // been hit by someone they loved // been tortured // held hostage // held a gun // gone without food for more than a day // gone without sleep for more than a day // had surgery // been slapped by a parent // gone to another planet // been to war // been forced into something // had a panic attack // gotten stitches // gotten arrested // been hired to kill someone // played with a ouija board // witnessed death // been possessed // been in a car accident // had sex with a stranger // been half-naked in the cold // been stabbed // passed out from pain // cried themselves to sleep // faked a smile // prayed // spent a whole day in bed // taken anger out on themselves // had something slipped into their food or drink // been sexually assaulted // had a stalker // been betrayed // been a traitor // gotten away with crime // taken their anger out on someone they love // been used // used someone // been terrified // played a cruel game on someone // been dominant // been submissive // laughed when they felt like crying // accidentally hurt someone they cared about // thrown up // had a threesome // taken part in group sex // gotten into a fist fight // gone to jail // been deported // used a fake ID // gone to a rave // been in a house fire // left the country // told a dark joke 0 Comments

03/18/2024 03:28 PM  [ Quotes ] "Yes, I'm still going to misbehave!" "Nobody has more trust issues than 'that famous person'." “I don’t care what people think about me. Never did, never will. Life is too short to be worrying about that sh*t.” “If I died tomorrow, I would be a happy girl.” “I like pin-up girls. I’m more of a boy than a girl. I’m not a lesbian, though – not before a sambuca anyway.” “You know how you either grow up in a Michael Jackson house or a Prince house? For me it was Michael Jackson. I could never decide whether I wanted to be Michael Jackson or marry him. “ “A little bit of anorexia, a little bit of bulimia. I’m not totally OK now but I don’t think any woman is.” “Some people reckoned that I looked healthier when I was bigger but I had terrible skin and no energy.” "I do suffer from depression, I suppose. Which isn’t that unusual. You know, a lot of people do." “Since I was 16, I’ve felt a black cloud hangs over me.” “I’m happiest with my family around me.” “I love to live and I live to love.” "I'm a dirty little Jewish girl." "Playing the guitar must be what it feels like to have a d*ck." "I'm not Amy the star, I'm Amy the girl with the guitar." "There's no point in saying anything but the truth." “I believe in fate and I believe that things happen for a reason but I don’t think that there’s a high power, necessarily. I believe in karma very much though. There are so many rude people around and they’re the people that don’t have any real friends. And relationships with people — with your mum, your nan, your dog — are what you get the most happiness in life from. Apart from shoes and bags.” “I am difficult if I am drinking. I can be a cruel person.“ "If you're nice to me I'll never write anything bad about you." 0 Comments

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