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Age: 31
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12/08/2022 01:53 PM
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MCOM SPOTIFY EPISODE
Gianna: “It has been one hell of a month whew, but were back with a new episode of Morning cup of Murder!”
Adore: “damn, it feels so good to be back in the studio for a minute! Since taking off with hulu it seems like we left our listeners behind” Laughing in the mic she moves her hair out of her face a bit.
Gianna: “Today, we have a very special episode. This is our first ever interview!”
Adore: Cheering and screaming in the background, “to give yall a little backstory, we are interviewing Evan Sinclair, he’s a rock star! – and an ex con!”
Gianna: “Why don’t we allow Evan, to tell us who he is… Evan! What’s up friend!” Gianna gives him a high five, “welcome to the Morning cup of Murder spotify studio!”
Evan: With a nervous chuckle he begins to speak, “Thank you ladies for having me, it’s a pleasure.”
Gianna: “The pleasure is ours! So, tell us… who IS Evan Sinclair?”
Evan: “heh—” noticing the bowl of peanut m&ms he smiled, “May I?” dipping his hand in the bowl he took a handful of the candy, popping one into his mouth. “Heh, that’s a very broad question there, Gi… I am a lot of things, not all of them are good but ya know... life. I am a musician, an artist first and foremost. I play guitar and am the lead vocalist in a punk rock band known as 'Saint Riot.' Music is my release and my safe place, keeps me grounded ya know?" He continues while popping another m&m into his mouth. "Outside of your average rock star life, I'm kind of a mess to be honest with you... high stress, high profile, high pressure... it's easy to succumb to things like drug and alcohol abuse."
Adore: "Damn, thats so interesting! Congratulations on a successful career path, we look forward to hearing some new tunes! In the case with your step father, if you could turn back the hands of time, and change
things... would you?"
Evan: "I’ve thought about this question a lot, and it’s really hard to give a solid answer...I hated Frank, my mother married him when I was 3 and he was always insulting me and beating the sh*t out of me for mistakes and bad behavior, sometimes just because. When I was 17, Frank tried to kill me and in my attempt to defend myself, I ended up killing him...If I could have gotten out of the house without doing anything to him, yeah, I would without hesitation. I just don’t know what would’ve happened to me if he had lived. It might’ve been me that wound up dead, or maybe I would’ve turned out alright. I don’t know."
Adore: "Mmn, that's a very interesting perspective on things! Glad you're still here though!"
Gianna: "Would you say prison is hard for someone whom has never been there before? -- like what is prison like?" Gianna, reached into the bowl herself pulling out some m&ms intrigued by the man's history.
Evan: "Funny you should ask that Gi, didn't you just get out of prison?" Everyone in the studio started laughing.
Gianna: "Ahh cack, cack, cack! No, I was in jail thank you very much and I was in there for less than 2 hours dont play me..." she laughed along with everyone else.
Evan: "But seriously, yes, the experience in prison is enough to rattle even an experienced uh... criminal you could say. I had a rude awakening going in there, thinking I could just act the way I always do and boy did I learn the hard way, that even a place as degrading as prison has it's own social etiquette."
Adore: "What was it like in prison? did you make friends?"
Evan: "It was hell. You're heavily monitored and controlled, which was really hard for me to
get used to in the beginning. I’m a punk, I hate authority with a burning passion. You’re forced to live in this authoritarian dystopia made up of people who are at best untrustworthy and at worst predatory. Violence is a common thing, usually rival gangs, but there’s also guys who just want to take out their anger or sexual frustration on someone and just go for it with the weakest target. -- Eh, for the first few months I got jumped ALOT. I was angry, and defiant, ran my mouth a little too much and made some enemies pretty quickly! I was in the infirmary at least once a week but by the end of my first 3 months, I felt defeated. My spirit was broken, I lost all my fight, decided to keep my head down and avoid any other confrontation. Eventually, I made some friends, maybe five or six I was really close to. There’s nothing easy about serving time, but they made it a little more bearable."
Gianna: "Sheesh, that sounds horrible! Did you feel lonely? Did you have fears of being forgotten by friends and family?"
Evan: I was so f***ing lonely. You’re in this awful situation and you can’t even look to your closest friends for support. I never thought I’d be forgotten, not by the people who mattered most. Ian and Gavin, my bandmates, and Gavin’s parents came to visit me weekly, but there was a lot I didn’t tell them, I couldn’t risk someone overhearing and thinking I was a snitch, and I didn’t want to burden them with how bad off I really was. Those four are my family. I never did hear from any of my blood relatives after what happened with Frank. Back when that had gone down and I was let out of jail, I didn’t have anywhere to go so Gavin’s parents took me in and have always treated me like their own son."
Adore: "Damn, thats rough as f*** dude! So grateful you made it out of there, Do you think someone could use counseling after going to prison? Would counseling benefit a criminal?" She takes a sip of her water, placing the cup beside her on the table.
Evan: "Definitely. I really should’ve gone through counseling myself, I wish I had. I went to rehab about a year later and the therapy there helped me work out some stuff. Many don't know that counseling is available for inmates who want it while serving their time, but it can only help so much while you’re living like an animal in confinement."
Gianna: "That's deep! I think alot of people are conditioned to believe that committing a crime means you're a bad person, or you automatically have a cold heart, or you're in humane. Therapy and mental health should be a more important topic in the judical system. -- Can you walk us through what happened that day with your step father?"
Evan: "Frank and I fought all the time, we just never got along and had very different values. He was super conservative and religious, one of those guys into “traditional masculinity” or whatever the f*** it’s called. Based on that, he had all these expectations of me, and I didn’t live up to any of them. By my junior year of high school he was convinced I was gay - which he was only half-right about, as I figured out eventually. He got meaner after that, and if there were any traces of love for me before, they were gone now. That night we were in the kitchen, he was carving up the rest of the turkey from the day before and I’d come in to get a drink. I don’t remember what we started arguing about, but it got heated and insults started being exchanged. He was getting angrier by the minute, and finally I called him another name and he charged at me with the knife. He chased me into the living room and cornered me, and he stabbed me in the shoulder. He’d never gone that far before and between doing that and the way he was looking at me, I knew that if I didn’t protect myself I was going to die. That’s when I grabbed the fire poker and swung it at his head. The little hook thing went into
his brain just enough to make him start having a seizure, and he died later that night at the
hospital. My mom wasn’t as cruel as Frank was, but he’d turned her against me over the years. She valued him a lot more and when she came in and saw us, she assumed the worst and told the police that I’d attacked my stepdad for no reason. I was escorted by the police to the hospital for the stab wound, and once I’d been stitched up, they arrested me. The investigation took two months, but they found it was self-defense and dropped the charges."
Adore: "I can't even imagine my mama hating me like that... wait -- nevermind... next question, what was the first thing you did when you were released?"
Gianna: "uh uh, not you bringing up your broke days in the trenches" laughing she reached for some more m&ms herself, tossing a few into her mouth.
Evan: "Sh*t, I remember it like it was yesterday! I walked outside and say my bandmates Ian & Gavin and hugged the sh*t out of them. After that we went to get some REAL food at a local diner then they took me to our rehearsal space, and I was able to play my guitar for the first time in years! It was honestly, the best feeling in the world!"
Gianna: "Wow, what an incredible story of triumph. You went through it, but here you are able to rebuild your life! Yes, of course it's going to take time; physically, mentally, emotionally and financially, but you have the will power! We believe in you, Evan! Thank you for joining us tonight on this special Morning Cup of Murder episode! Make sure to like and subscribe to our podcast channel, you never know when we're going to do another pop-up! byeeee"
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