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Original and ONLY CrazyBitchRebelNOT HB|Multi Para & Novella ONLY. Literate ONLY Apply|Selective Adding|Open Verse|No F*CKING Mirrors|No CARTOONS or DISNEY
A wraith with an angel’s body A demon with a smile made of gold.
YOU STUPID SOUL SUCKER, I WON'T EVER BECOME JUST LIKE YOU!
A KILLER WITH A PERFECT WEAPONS, CRYSTAL EYES AND A HEART OF COAL.
Help, I've done it again I've hurt myself today,
THE WORST PART IS THERE'S NO-ONE ELSE TO BLAME.
Ouch I have lost myself again and I am nowhere to be found, ..
Yeah I think that I might break I've lost myself again and I feel so unsafe.
Name;Madison Raelynn Carter.
Nicknames;Rae Rae,Blondie,Chickenlegs,Rebel,Sugar Mama.
Gender; Female.
Species; Human.
Birthday;December 4, 1989.
Age;23[twenty-three years of age].
Parents;Ellie Harp [biological mother],Mick Wolff[biological father],[adoptive mother],Anna Sawyer[adoptive father] Larry Sawyer
Siblings;To be determined
Children;Had a stillborn baby girl
Marital Status;Single.
Sexual Orientation;Straight.
Significant Other;None.
Birthplace;Tree Hill, North Carolina.
Current Location;Los Angeles, California|Tree Hill, North Carolina
Occupation;Label Owner|Music Producer|
Eye | Hair Color;Green/Blonde.
Height | Weight;5'7/120 pounds.
Piercing | Tattoos | Scars; Yes|Yes|Yes.
Smoke | Drink | Drugs; No|Yes|Use too|
Physical Appearance; Short, Chicken Legs, Blonde Hair, Green Eyes.
Personality; Smart Ass, Cocky, Loner, Cheery, Bitchy, Crazy, Rebel, One of a Kind. She's not one to take things lightly, she gets hurt often.
YOU WRITE SUCH PRETTY WORDS; BUT LIFE'S NO STORYBOOK
Skipping beats, blushing cheeks. I am struggling, daydreaming bed scenes in the corner cafe. And then I'm left in bits recovering tectonic tremblings. You get me every time.Why'd ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you. Must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well. SAY GOODNIGHT AND GO. Follow you home, you've got your headphones on and you're dancing. Got lucky, beautiful shot. You're taking everything off. Watch the curtains wide open and you're following the same routine. Flicking through the TV, relaxed and reclining and you think you're alone. Oh, why'd ya have to be so cute? It's impossible to ignore you. Must you make me laugh so much? It's bad enough we get along so well. Say goodnight and go.One of these days, you'll miss your train, and come stay with me. It's always say goodnight and go. We'll have drinks, and talk about things and, any excuse to stay awake with you.You'll sleep here, I'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again at my convenience. We'd be good, we'd be great together. Go.
WHY'D YA HAVE TO BE SO CUTE?
ONE DAY I'M GONNA FORGET YOUR NAME AND ONE SWEET DAY,
You're gonna drown in my lost pain.
Look out she's coming at ya big dark eyes like CLEOPATRA. the eyes of a femme fatale bet you get the ominous feeling a cold blooded creature in the dark is stealing toward you you best beware, TAKE CARE SHE’S BETTER THEN A WORK OF FICTION HALF INGENUE, HALF VIXEN your little paper doll but brother she's a wicked sister subtle and sly, watch it mister and take my advice, stay away or number your days opiate clouds surround you an addiction to love has found you out half out of your mind fool, when I think about you I want to wrap my arms around you and tell you more than words can say she devil, she conquer she devil, you want her you're unaware tonight of the danger everywhere my poor little sleeping giant dreaming warm and silent where has your Delilah gone? why don't you wake and see through every way that she's deceived you how she moves within? see, everything the woman touches it withers and dies in her clutches why should your fate be any different from these? oh, well I've heard about you every word that's said about you the man in the silvery web he fell for the sweet persuasion of a black widow spider now nothing can save him it's just a matter of time she devil, she conquer she devil, you want her you're unaware tonight of the danger everywhere she devil, she conquer she devil, you want her you're well aware tonight of the danger everywhere but you don't care.
PICTURE
Now, if you don't know me then, well, you would probably judge me right off the bat because let's face it, that's what people do...judge other people. Some may judge me as emo or the loner or whatever, but I'm just a girl who loves music and art. Some judged me as the popular girl in high school, but I was just a cheerleader with a lot of friends. Some may judge me as the girl with all the problems. That may be true, but doesn't everyone have problems? See that's what I don't get. Labels. How can one person be labeled as so many things? Everyone is the same. We just have our own different quarks, and we all have our screw-ups. We're just our own us. So judge me, label me, whatever. It's up to you.
In the music business, personalities count for naught, reputation is everything along with beauty- its really just high school on a higher stakes playing field, dictated by those who are of the same status and their lack of empathy for others in emotional crisis. The day I realized that was the day that I "went off the rails" I started drinking more heavily and had meaningless sex with faceless strangers, I lost control and needed to rekindle my faith in life, thats when I returned home and found myself wanting to fill an aching void within my heart.
4 Years 6 Months and 2 Days.
Is it enough to change a life? Change a personality? Change an appearance?
The answers NO.
Madison Raelynn Carter grew up always loving music. Since she could talk she would be around the house singing along to whatever was on the radio or playing on her record player. Her childhood was a normal one. Well, normal by her standards. She grew up in a single parent household, never knowing who her mother was. On the surface it was something that never really upset her but all you had to do was dig deep enough and the problems it caused would be obvious. She believed that this was the reason why she has trust issues with people, more specifically men. She would never easily give up her heart because she was always aware of the pain that could come from it. In high school she didn't go around screwing every guy she could. The offers had come up but she just wasn't into it. She wasn't willing to be a quick lay for any guy and become a locker room joke for the jocks. She had her close group of friends but once she graduated she just became a lonely shadow of what she used to be. In high school she had a best friend, a best guy friend, his name was , he was always there for her. But one day the two of them decided to lose their virginitys to one another, so they did, and they continued on that road of having sex with one another and during that time she met another guy his name was Holden, he was a bad boy, and he made her try new things bad things. While she explored her sexual needs and desires with . She explored her bad girl stripes with , by drinking and snorting drugs, smoking others. She was all over the place during high school until things suddenly changed… She was left pregnant alone and scared and after finding out she was pregnant wanted her to abort that baby but she chose against that, and her and , well she had to stop all that shit she was doing with him, so they drifted apart from one another. Just as her and did because of her decision to keep the baby. All she had was her girl friends . As she drifted farther from the guys she drifted closer to the girls and really for that matter. Her and were already close but her and just seemed to bond more because when she lost the baby it was who comforted her.
High school had ended, so she decided that she would move away was the best idea for everyone, she wasn't going to stay some where and do the wishes of others. So she left and went to LA.
A long and hellish nine months of being pregnant took its toll on she, but she had never believed in abortion and would have never done that. But being pregnant for those months and bonding with the baby girl inside her, broke her when she found out the baby was dead. It was just tough after dealing with morning sickness, cravings, and the labor pains to just have that beautiful baby girl up and the baby died it broke her it was one of the toughest things she had ever had to accept and over come. Her baby dying was the hardest thing she had ever had to over come, and some day's she thought she wouldnt get by.
Nine Months Later....
After the pregancy and losing her daughter she managed to move on and get an internship at a record label out there and worked her way up so she could live out there.
MORE COMING SOON.
She was now one of the big execs in charge of signing new artists, but she wasn't the typical big boss looking to sign whatever hot pop princess came along. Her favorite music had always been the music that came from the soul. The music that you could hear all the hurt and struggle someone had gone through while writing it. This is what she wanted for the completely superficial music industry. She wanted it to be real again and although she was only one person, she would do her damnest to get it that way. Work had pretty much taken over her life and she had no time for friends or love interests. The only real connections she had with people were the few nights a week she and some coworkers would go out for drinks but no matter what, she always ended up going home alone. On the outside no one could see how unhappy she was. She never showed emotion to people. She didn't like to show people her weaknesses, so she always had her guard up with people.
Her time in Los Angeles.... Coming soon.
During her 4 years away....Coming soon.
4 Years Later...
She knew that it was time to do something, she was so unhappy and she knew that there was only one way to cure her happiness to make things better. She would have to just accept the fact she lost a baby and she had, she was over it. Now it was time to go back home for a short while and reconnect, with friends sand her went through it all together. It had been 4 years since she had gotten a real change of pace. She couldn’t stand LA anymore she missed her real friends and the calm life style.
PICTURE
So fucking blow those words out the back of your head, I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit. You tell me lies and you give what you get, so blow those fucking words out the back of your head. Oh my God did you just hear? Lies are coming back in style. Oh my God they seem so real that they bind you, and confine you. So shut your mouth we've heard it all. Hypocrites and critics all, can fuck off we do this for our souls oh our souls. What they say won’t make us go away. So fucking blow those words out the back of your head. I've heard it all and I’m done with that shit. You tell me lies and you give what you get, so blow those fucking words out the back of your head. We're not sorry and we won't conform It’s not
A CHOICE BUT SOMETHING INBORN
If we fail following our hearts can you blame us. No No No. A square peg in a black hole, we don’t fit in, that's the way it goes. You shouldn’t act like you’re better than us cause you're not no you're not. No No No.What they say won't make us go away. So fucking blow those words out the back of your head. I've heard it all and I'm done with that shit. You tell me lies and you give what you get, so blow those fucking words out the back of your head. Tell yourself your not alone at all.
LOOKING OUT YOUR WINDOW. KNOW YOU'RE ALL ALONE.
