OPTIONAL TASK 375
1.) “Why do you have that look on your face?”
“I’m exhausted! I’m tired of being strong for everyone, I’m tired of pretending that I’m okay when I’m not... I can’t keep pretending anymore. I’m not okay... I’m not okay and I don’t know what to do about it. I don’t know how to help myself. I don’t know how to keep on going. I just want it all to stop. I don’t want to feel a damn thing anymore” she said.
2.) “What have you done to yourself?”
“I’m sorry. I thought I was passed this. I haven’t hurt myself in a while. I thought I was stronger than this, but I’m weak. You were never meant to see this. Please don’t think any less of me. I would hate for your opinion of me to change. I’ll try and stop again I promise. I really promise I will. I don’t want to hurt myself, it just happened. I’m sorry” she stated.
3.) “It doesn’t do any good to get worked up.”
“Well now is not the time to tell me to calm down Katie. That will just get me more worked up. The delivery was supposed to be here today but now they aren’t getting here until tomorrow. We can’t complete the huge order we have. We don’t have enough flowers and we need to be on the road in two hours so we can deliver the flowers to the client in time. If we don’t make it the reputation of Darling Buds is ruined” she sighed.
4.) “No, I don’t hate you.”
“Are you sure? The way you’ve been acting lately makes it seem like you do. You’ve been pushing me away and freezing me out of your life. Kind of seems to me like you hate me. We used to be so close and tell each other everything... but now you keep me at arms length. What did I do? I must have done something. Tell me what I did to make you do this. Just tell me how to fix this please. I don’t want to be on the outside anymore” she said.
5.) “Looks like I’ll live long enough to make you pay.”
“Wow someone has been watching one too many revenge movies. Make me pay how? I mean seriously, who do you think you are the Godfather? With all those pills you keep popping and the alcohol you keep drinking you’re probably not going to live as long as you’d hope. It was a dumb bet, it’s silly to get so worked up like this. Take a damn chill pill” she said.
6.) “Did you really think you’d get a second chance?”
“I guess I hoped things would work out. The universe had other plans for us before, but now we are both in the same town again, I... I guess I thought we could get a do over. Try again. Try and get it right this home and not let anything get in our way. I guess I thought you’d want the same thing, but clearly not. But just remember you’re not the one who go your heart broke. I did” she firmly stated.
7.) "I don’t understand, why are you doing this?”
“Because I want to feel something. Anything at all. All I’ve been feeling lately is numb, a nothingness. It’s like I can’t rven feel at all, so I do this... I do this to try and feel. It works now and then, sometimes I still feel nothing. I don’t know why I’m like this but I am. If you can’t handle it then you should leave, abandon me like everyone else has. No shame in it. I’m used to it by now. People always leave right?” She asked.
8.) “What makes me so special?”
“You get me in a way that nobody else does. I can be my absolute self with you. I don’t fear you judging me. I don’t have to pretend to be something I’m not to please you. You accept me for the way that I am and I love that about you. You love me just as much on my bad days as you do my good days. You’re always there when I need you and I can’t thank you enough for that. I love you” she said softly.
9.) “You have no idea what I’ve been through.”
”Oh I do, trust me. Do you seriously think your eyes her only one to go through sh*t? Newsflash you aren’t. I’ve been where you are so trust me I understand better than most people. What you’ve been through doesn’t excuse your actions though. You had choices and you made the wrong decision. Learn from it. Do better. Be better. I’m here for you” she stated.
10.) “You really don’t have to do that, not for me.”
”I know I didn’t have to do it, I wanted to. Wanting and having to do something are completely different. You are worth it. I love you and I hope this shows just how much I do. I would do anything for you no matter what. I’ve got your back. You don’t need to understand why, or believe why. Just accept it. I’m here and always will be” she spoke softly.