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12/02/2020 10:13 PM 


  • Pick out a Christmas tree
  • Go Ice Skating
  • Create Winter themed flower arrangements
  • Play in the snow
  • Make Gingerbread cookies
  • Spend time with friends and family
  • Buy or make an ugly Christmas sweater
  • Have a Christmas movie marathon
  • Put up Christmas decorations


11/30/2020 11:41 PM 



“Last call” came Hanna’s voice over the country music that was playing loudly in the bar. Bowie was unable to sleep so she had headed to the bar to drink and talk to Hanna. The time sure did fly when you were having fun, Bowie had lost track of time all together. Glancing at her watch she noticed it was 1:30am, and the bar would be closing at 2:00am. Bowie ordered a round of shots, not for a group of people but for herself. She figured if she was going to go home soon, she might as well make the most of the time she had left in the bar. The band that was playing announced their last song, and thanked everyone for coming out. The band were good, Hanna always had a knack for booking the best bands to play at the bar, not surprising since she had such a good taste in music. “Come on take a shot with me” Bowie called over to Hanna who agreed. The two took a shot and Hanna went off and finished serving other people, and Bowie finished up her shots. Then finished her beer.

Closing time came and everyone filed out of the club stumbling, pushing and shoving as they did so. Bowie decided to help Hanna clean up a little, before going outside. The air was cool, not cold, but cool. She leant against the brick wall and took out her pack of cigarettes before pulling a single white stick from the box. She then closed the box and placed it back in her bag before grabbing her lighter and lighting up the tip of the cigarette. Taking a long drag she allowed the smoke to travel down her throat. It felt good as it did so. She watched as strangers passed her in the night, as they tried to drunkenly make their way home, or to wherever it may be. Bowie finished her cigarette and discarded it appropriately just as Hanna came out of the bar. “Need a ride?” Hanna asked. Bowie shook her head “no thanks, I’m going to walk around a little bit then get a cab” Bowie said. Bowie walked with Hanna to her car before saying goodbye to her.

Bowie walked through Downtown, the shops all closed and blacked out with no lights on. The entire town shutdown, at least for the rest of the morning anyway. The street lights illuminated the streets, and there was something slightly magical about it. Glancing up at the night sky she smiled to herself as she examined the stars. Walking past her shop she decided to head into Darling Buds and decided to do a little work before heading home. There was always something so therapeutic about working with nature, and she hoped it would calm her down enough so she would be able to sleep. She moved around the shop throwing any dead or dying flowers into a bucket, and then replacing them with new ones. She threw the old flowers into the trash receptacle before going over her order list. She pinned up the orders in order of what needed to be completed first, so she had a clear idea of what she was doing.

She then did a spot of cleaning before closing up the shop again. She knew the town would be bustling again in the morning once everything opened again, but right now it seemed a little dead with all the closed shops and food places. It always felt strange walking through the town so late at night/early in the morning, as it was a stark contrast to what it was like during the day. It was almost ghostly at night when everything was closed. No random people walking passed the shops looking through the window, no store owners doing their trade… just nothing. She sighed to herself, and saw a cab and waved it down. She got inside and gave the driver her address and he drove her home. She handed him some cash before getting out and going into her home. She went upstairs and took off her makeup and changed into her pjs before getting into bed and going to sleep, ready for the rest of the day ahead.


11/25/2020 11:01 PM 


"Don't do this right now” came a voice from the other side of her bedroom door. It was her concerned partner Ryan who had come to check on her after receiving a distressing voice mail from her. She knew he would be at work and left him a voice mail that said ‘I can’t go on, this pain is too much. I will always love you Ryan, but I just can’t do this anymore. Don’t come over, just tell the police and paramedics to come to my home’. Her voice croaky from crying. Now he was at her door trying to prevent her from doing something terrible, that she would not be able to take back. Bowie sat with her back pressed against the locked door, sitting rigid as she stared at the pill bottles, alcohol bottles and the razor blade placed on the floor in front of her. She had recently lost her parents, and the pain was all too much for her. An emptiness filled her heart, the numbness pounding in her brain, and the salt tears flowed unchecked from her eyes were all signs of her grief. A shear nothingness now took hold of her soul and was beginning to engulf her entirely. The grief was eating her up and trying to destroy her.

Her blue hues stared at the razor in front of her. The metallic silver glistened under the sunlight that was streaming in from the window. It was sharp. It could effortlessly cut through the soft flesh of her wrists, and she was sure if she pressed hard enough she could sever and artery or two. She wasn’t sure what her method would be. Maybe swallow the pills down with alcohol and then cut her wrists, maybe that would be the devastating combination she was after. The depressive thoughts in her head were swirling around and tormenting her. She just wanted the pain to go away and in the melancholia state she was in, she believed the only way to escape the pain was to be dead. Being dead would mean she would be with her parents and would not have to face the cruel world alone. Although she had Ryan and her friends she still felt so alone. She felt like she had nothing else to live for, so what was the point in living.

“Come on Bowie, please don’t do this” Ryan said, his voice briefly pulling her away from her thoughts. “I know you are hurting right now, but please don’t do this. I love you. You can get through this Bow, I will help you through this. I love you. Please, just open the door” he said. She could hear the sorrowfulness in his tone, which made her feel bad. She could tell she was hurting him, but she still felt like she had to do this. “No” she softly responded, and moved away from the door dragging the items with her. “Bowie, please” Ryan called out to her. He looked through the small gap in the keyhole and could see she had moved away from the door. With a couple of hard kicks the door swung off its hinges allowing him into the room. He rushed over to her and embraced her in a hug. Bowie tried to push him off but his grip was too tight. “I’m not going to let you hurt yourself. I can’t lose you Bowie, I love you” he said.

11/25/2020 10:38 PM 



All the fun has been had on the trip and there is nothing else to do but to sit back and relax, and enjoy the flight home. Music makes the time pass faster, so hit the shuffle button and enjoy the music.

1.)  Machine Gun Kelly ft. Halsey - Forget Me Too :

2.) Juliet Simms - All American :

3.) Black Veil Brides - Scarlett Cross :

4.) McFly - Happiness :

5.) Harry Styles - Golden :

6.) Little Mix - Sweet Melody :

7.) Pan!c At The Disco - High Hopes :

8.) Jonas Blue ft. Dakota - Fast Car :

9.) Kane Brown - Worship You :

10.) Morgan Wallen - More Than My Hometown :

11.) Dan + Shay ft. Justin Bieber - 10,000 Hours :

12.) Clay Walker - Makes Me Want To Stay :

13.) Sam Hunt - Hard To Forget :

14.)  Luke Combs - Forever After All :

15.) Miranda Lambert - Settling Down :

16.) Sam Hunt - Body Like A Back Road :

11/24/2020 12:58 PM 


11/23/2020 11:01 PM 


1) 5.00am - Wake up and go for a run.
2) 6.00am - Have a long hot bath, then get dressed.
3). 7.00am - Go and have breakfast and coffee.
4) 8.00am - Hit the slopes to go snowboarding.
5) 12.00pm - Go for lunch.
6) 1.00pm - Explore the scenery and nature, and take lots of photos.
7) 2.00pm - Take a nap.
8) 2.30pm - Wake up and freshen up.
9). 3.00pm - Meet up with Benjamin and go for hot coco.
10) 5.00pm - Meet up with Avery to hang out.
11) 7.00pm - Go for dinner with Avery.
12) 8.00pm - Relax outside in the hot tub with a glass of wine, and admire the night sky.
13) 9.00pm - Shower and changed into pj's.
14) 9.30pm - Relax in bed watching a movie.
15) 11.00pm - Try and get some sleep, ready for more adventures tomorrow.

11/23/2020 10:49 PM 


11/21/2020 10:52 PM 


11/20/2020 11:20 PM 


1.) Who are you rooming with while in Jackson Hole, Wyoming?
 Bowie is going to be in a room on her own, but no doubt spending a lot of time in her friends rooms too.

2.) What are your 5 ski trip necessities? 
Snowboard, Gloves, Scarf, Face Covering To Keep Warm, A Good Warm Hat. Bonus A Camera.

3.) What is the first thing you are planning on doing during your trip?
Hitting the slopes to snowboard.

4.) What is your favorite thing about being in the mountains? 
Experiencing The Snow, Bowie Loves The Snow.

5.) What is your least favorite thing about being in the mountains? 
Being Away From Baxter, And Getting Too Cold.

6.) What wild animal do you not want to come into contact with on your trip?
Are There Snow Leopards? 

7.) Are you a pro skier or an amateur? 
Well Experienced.

8.) Do you prefer to ski or snowboard? 

9.) Are you scared to ride on the ski lift? 
Not At All.

10.) Do you love the snow or hate it? 
Love It.

11.) Is there a left and right ski? 
Some Models Have Different Shapes To Distinguish Left And Right, But Not All Ski Models Do.

12.) Is the abominable snowman real? 
Urban Legend Says He Is.

13.) How many layers of clothes are you wearing? Are you warm yet?
 A Lot, And I Am Toasty.

14.) Do you have mittens or gloves? 

15.) Do you like penguins or polar bears? 
 Penguins Over Polar Bears.

16.) How cold is to cold?  
When I Am Frozen Solid, It's Too Cold.

17.) Are you making a tiny snowman or a big snowman? 
Giant Snowman For Sure.

18.) Would you get on the Polar Express and go to the North Pole? 

19.) Would you go to the top of Mount Crumpit to spy on the Grinch? 
Lets Get Cimbing.

20.) Would you trust Zach to drive you around on a snowmobile? 
Probably Not, He Might Kill Us ;)

21.) While we're here do you plan on cutting down your Christmas tree? 
No. That's A Lot To Take Home.

22.) If I double-dog dared you would you stick your tongue to a metal pole? 
Absolutely Not.

23.) At what point does getting hit with snowballs stop being physically painful and start becoming cute?
 It Doesn't.

24.) Is it really fun to stand on two sticks and throw yourself down a side of a mountain? 
No, One Stick Is Better ;)

25.) What are you planning on doing extra since Zach has the bill? 
Private Lessons Maybe. Or Emptying The Mini Bar.

11/19/2020 03:20 PM 


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