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Addie, do you want chocolate cake?
************ TRIGGER WARNING FOR EATING DISORDER ************
I’m not proud of this. I feel very ashamed. It’s the third month in row that I’ve skipped a meal or two. But my body’s changing. And I’m terrified of those changes. Have you seen how gorgeous my mother is? She’s the literal definition of a superstar. Mum is thin, and beautiful, and so photogenic. At her fifty-six years she still fits into the tiniest outfits. Mum’s body is ridiculous. I’m starving. All I’ve had to eat today is a salad I had for lunch. I have to be able to fit into the costume for my ballet show. I’d die if I didn’t fit in it. Mum always has to have things taken in. Can you imagine if I had to have my costume let out?! I’d die. I’d really die. “Addie?” The voice of her mother brings her back to reality. Her stomach grumbles some more and she satiates her hunger by drowning her stomach with water. As her lips touch the glass, Addison is well aware that the water she’s consuming has zero calories. She shakes her head and the hunger haze her brain was leading her through. “I’m sorry, what?” Addison said, making her mum repeat what she had asked. “I asked if you wanted some chocolate cake for dessert. Auntie Dan made it.” The blond popstar asked. Her blue orbs locking with her daughter’s. “Um… no thanks. “ Addison replied and that peaked her mother’s interest. Dannii’s chocolate cake was something Addison had never turned down. “Everything alright, Addie? It’s auntie Dan’s chocolate cake. It’s you favourite.” Kylie said, probing her daughter. “I don’t want any, mum! I’m not hungry!” She exclaimed and left the table for her bedroom. Addison didn’t appear for the rest of the night. And when Kylie went to check on her later that night, she found something that horrified her. Addison’s journal was filled with multiple daily weigh ins, a list of everything she’d been eating for the last three weeks. She’d known her daughter was feeling stressed about the performance arts school she’d gotten into. She knew the body image issues would arise at some point. She just didn’t think it would be this quick. And even less, she didn’t think she’d miss the signs. Her blue eyes, filled with tears, turned to her daughter. The single most important girl in her life. “How did I miss this?” Kylie whispered to herself, vowing to herself that she was going to do everything in her power to bring her daughter back from the black hole that she was spiraling into.
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