Drabble # 15 Sundowning
Category: Drabbles
Current mood:  awake

Sonja looked over to to her ex-husband before looking back to the grass below her feet, taking a breath before turning away from him. The last thing she wanted was to lose Lucian, and she knew if she went with Jacob it would be over.. not only her marriage but her own life. Turning away as she heard Jacobs pleas to her, Sonja couldn’t listen to him. Her own mind was made up and she wasn’t backing down to him, to her losing him meant nothing.. but to lose Lucian, the one man she has loved since she was a child now that would hurt more than death itself. Sonja walked to her front door as she stopped hearing the voices behind it, her heart dropping as she heard her daughter speaking. Liza stood there next to her brothers and sister as she looked back to her dad, "I swear if mother went with him I will never forgive her, not after everything that motherf***er has done to us... I can’t trust him, and if she trusts him then how could we trust her?" Liza said to her father and siblings. Jerick sighed turning away from his sister, "Mother would never do that Elizabeth, mother loves Lucian she loves all of us.. Do not think so little of her Moon.." he said growing slightly angry at his sister for even thinking that his mother would return back to his fathers side.


Hearing her family as Sonja sat there silently crying, her mind racing againts herself as she questioned everything she’s ever done up until this moment. Was it all for nothing? Was she right for everything she has done in her eight-hundered and thirteen years of existing? In that moment she sat there wondering if she was better off dead, if her father killing her over six-hundered years ago would have been worth it in the end. As she sat there Sonja looked over to the woods, her eyes scanning the area making sure she didn’t notice any movement aroud the trees that surrounded her little house. Minutes passed that seemed to her like hours before the door behind her opened, looking up to see her husband as her head fell low as her waves fell around her frame. "I wanted him gone sooner, I-I didn’t want him around us.. Around our childeren.. I wanted us to be safe and for him to-" Sonja was cut off from her words feeling her husbands grasp. Hearing his words made her almost instantly calm, "I know, I am not upset or angry at you. I know you were trying to get him away as soon as you could, the childeren know what you were doing as well." Lucians’ words were gentle and kind towards his wife, he knew what she was trying to accomplish and that was to keep her family safe.


Sonja smiled lightly walking back into the house with her husband, seeing her childeren as her eyes locked onto her daughter Elizabeth. Sonjas’ smile faded into a sigh as she looked to her oldest child, "Elizabeth Moon I do not want to ever hear that I would leave your father for that man, I can not belive that you would even have that thought cross your mind ever.. You seen what he did to us, what hell he put not only me myself but what he put you through," she said as her voice started to fail her. Taking a breath as she sat down Sonja looked to all of her childeren, "If any of you think I would lose anything I have here to be with Jacob then I will say you do not know who your mother really is, or how much I fought to get away from that man to save Elizabeth and Jerick.. I am beyond upset that my own daughter thought so low of me, for how she thought that just because he came around I would jump back into his arms, I have done everything in my power to keep him away from us.. I would rather give up my own life than to have him around any of you, Lucian is my husband and he has been my husband for the past seven hundered or more years. I will never give that up or leave his side ever." she said trying to catch her breath. Running her hands through her hair as Sonja stood up, only to walk towards the glass doors that lead to the back of the property. As she went quietly she could hear her husband gently scolding his daughter about what she had said behind the closed door, feeling the cold breeze on her skin and seeing the moon high in the sky before gently resting against one of the oak trees.


Looking to the moon for guidance as a small smile came across her frame, "I now understand.. I wish you were still here mother, Hopefully you and father have found each other once more.. Hopefully he finally sees that I am happy in my life.." Sonja said quietly. Even after all the hurt that her father put her through, she learned that it had to be let go. As Sonja sat there a little sigh escaped her, her brown hues looking off to the woods as she seen a figure. After her ex had just been here she was worried he had come back, standing to her feet as she readied herself to start walking back to her house. Once the figure came into the moons light Sonja calmed seeing it was nothing but a little doe, taking a deep breath in as her body took a moment to realize it wasn’t in any danger. Sitting back down on her pourch as she smiled lightly trying to contain a small laugh as she finally realized that her body was back into it’s fight or flight mode, "How bloody lovely, well the ptsd hasn’t subsided after two-hundered years.. Fvckin hell, I guess this is what I deserve after the wars and bloodshed isn’t it? Well that’s quiet alright with me after all, through what you want at me I can handle it." she said lightly as she looked back to the moon. Hearing the little light footsteps beside her as Sonja smiled lightly not looking to her left, "Hello Emily." she said lightly knowing her neice was right beside her.