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wedding jitters. | journal entry
wedding jitters.november 6th, 2022www.roleplayer.me/goddessofrockx
This isn't the first wedding I've been to, but it's easily one of the most stressful and I have no idea why.
I've been the 'mother of the bride' before when I went to Kenny's wedding recently, and I've been witnesses and bridesmaids and everything else at weddings, but I don't know why this one is making me so nervous! I missed Will's, and I would've been the mother of the groom there anyway, Stella and Lee don't really want to get married. I missed Kim's because of a tour and the same with Adria's, so I guess this is the first time that it's one of my children. I don't know how to explain it, it sounds so dumb because everyone who knows me knows I look at Kenny as my daughter.
Maybe it's nerves because it's Tom's daughter? I don't know, it's annoying.
The plus side though is that Amu is a massive star in her own right, so there's not going to be a ton of "your mom is Stevie Nicks?!" and the spotlight is on me because I don't want that on her special day. I want my daughter to enjoy her wedding and reception with Mark and her friends and family without people gawking over who her parents are. So, for once in our lives we can enjoy something as a normal married couple instead of being international rockstars - and that makes me more grateful than anyone can imagine.
I'm sitting here wide awake with a Cold Brew while debating on how I want to do my own makeup. I don't know how to act when I can do things the way I want to instead of the way the world wants me to, I guess it comes from spending so much of my life doing what others wanted - Mick and the band, Karen, record labels, the fans. And at this moment, I can do what Stevie wants and it's nice.
And Stevie wants to finish this coffee and then watch a beautiful wedding between two people who are head over heels in love, and then party until the sun goes down.
Stevie
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