Emptiness Drabble (Young Justice verse)
Emptiness.
That’s how I feel inside for the past three years. Sure Wally’s spirit has told me to move on, but I can’t help it from being empty. Everywhere I look; I see my teammates, my friends either still dating or being married. I mean sure I tried dating to move on, but I couldn’t feel any connection or spark as I did with Wally. I only had a couple of one-night stands with the guys I hooked up with just to feel something only to feel empty. I know, I shouldn’t be sad. I have everything going for me; I’m raising Lian with Will, my brother-in-law, being a mentor to both Violet and Tara, being the leader of The Outsiders, and my first semester of teaching Comp. Literature at Stanford. None of this means anything without going on to someone I love but instead to an empty bed and a photograph to remind me of what were the best years of my life. I never told anyone that I have been suffering on the inside for the past two years. I thought about talking to Dinah about this and she’ll think of me as a basket case with word getting around to everybody being unfit to lead a team. My second go-to person to talk to is my best friend Cassie, but I know she’s been busy leading the Team and helping me co-lead The Outsider not to mention she has a lot on her plate and the last thing she needs is to hear me being emotional. Zatanna, my favorite Magician, and best friend have shared trauma and tragedy but I wouldn’t even know where to start or how to tell her about the pain I have in me. I’m just so f ucking tired of being nice, being in pain. I’m not sure if I want any of this anymore. I’m tired of holding back when it comes to taking down the enemy, I would rather beat them until blood starts coming out of their bodies. Great. Now I’m starting to think like my Dad now; that’s all I need right now. Can things get any worse now? “Tigress. Tigress? Artemis? Artemis!” A concerned female voice comes from a distance. The blonde Vietnamese woman snaps back to reality to see Tara waving a hand in her face with fear in her voice. Her gray hues see Violet, Bart, Tim, Forager, and Jaime staring at her with the same look on their faces. “Are you okay, Artemis?” Violet asked becoming worried for her mentor. “Umm…..” The words spoke from her mouth while trying to get both her mind and thoughts together. “I was lost, lost in thought. I need some take--- I’ll be back.” Artemis excuses herself from the training area of the Watchtower and walks towards the halls of the spacecraft getting lost on purpose. She found a place where she wouldn’t be found. Artemis takes off her mask, tossing it to the ground with tears falling from her eyes as she starts having a panic attack. She felt as if the world was closing in on her, making it harder for her to breathe. The blonde Vietnameses woman backs herself into the wall and slides towards the ground. Artemis really wishes Wally was here to confront her telling her to take a breath and to stay calm. But it will never happen. Emptiness is how she feels. The blonde grabs her phone from her pant pocket unlocking the screen and going through her contact list. “Can you talk? I need to talk, to have some advice. I feel like I have no one else to talk to anymore. Please call me ASAP.” She sends the text message and puts her phone up. Artemis starts doing breathing exercises to calm herself including becoming a soldier of not letting anyone else know that she was battling her demons. Artemis is on the brink of Dancing with The Devil.
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