Activity Check #13 - Recommit
"Are you still interested..."
Sophia's words blurred as he turned to face the window. He knew what she was going to ask. It had to be about him. Carter couldn't answer any questions about Thatcher. He just couldn't. Realizing he had trusted Thatcher made him feel sick to his stomach. Yet, deep down, he still felt like he needed to protect Thatcher because he had been there for Carter when no one else was.
"Carter? Are you still interested in recommitting yourself to us?" Sophia repeated. This time Carter heard her entire question.
He was somewhat relieved that she hadn't asked about Thatcher. "I am," he said with an eager nod. His foot tapped against the carpet nervously. Sophia had been instrumental in Carter joining Sanctum in the first place. He had met her at a party, and referred him to Thatcher to help start his business. Carter didn't meet Thatcher till a conference, but he felt like Sophia, Thatcher, and Phoebe had been like his family.
Carter still felt guilty for clinging to Thatcher like a loyal follower. Despite the thread of hope Carter held onto that Thatcher could be redeemed, he owed his loyalty to Sophia and Phoebe, not Thatcher. Right now, they needed him and the other members to show their support. After the self-reflection workshop, Carter realized this. He would be nothing without the Organization.
"I am very glad to hear that," Sophia smiled in his direction.
Carter had given up many secrets when he joined the Organiztion, but he never thought of it that way. He believed his secrets were safer with the Organization than with other people. They would only expose his secrets if he betrayed the Organization, and that wasn't something he planned on doing. Carter wasn’t fond of that week, but he felt like it had given him the guidance he needed.