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Diary Entry 23 - 09/23
September 23rd 2021.
Dear Diary,
I went an entire day without drinking any alcoholic beverage. I don’t know how I managed it, but somehow I did. I feel sick, but that’s probably because I am so dependent on it. I tried to be super healthy today. I started my morning with a smoothie bowl and freshly squeezed orange juice. I ran to the gym, worked out at the gym then ran home. I then had some apple slices with cashew butter as a snack, and a protein shake before showering and heading to work. I drank water only at the shop, instead of constantly drinking coffee.
For lunch I had a chicken salad wrap, with carrot sticks and humus, and a pot of mixed fruit along with some sparkling water with a slice of lemon. I also had a herbal tea just for a little something extra. I went back to work and continued out the day. Once I got home I walked Baxter and then fed him. I then prepared a vegan chili with brown rice, and some mixed veggies. I also had a sparkling grape juice, maybe that was to try and convince my brain I was having wine. I also limited my smoking intake and did not smoke any weed.
I am super proud of myself. But I am not getting my hopes up. I know this will not last. It will be impossible to just go cold turkey a suddenly stop what I have been doing for years. No, I could not possibly do that. If I am to quit alcohol it needs to be slowly reduced, and more importantly I need help to do it. But I am not ready to get that help just yet, maybe I am not ready to sit with someone and delve deep into my problems and reasons for why I drink.
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