Torturing herself with dwelling on the things that she most certainly shouldn't was a repeating pattern in Lily's life before Sanctum. Leaving all of that in the past along with all of those negative feelings was one of her main priorities now. But even so, she just couldn't let go. Not now. Not when so many things.. people.. had clawed their way back into her life. She found herself questioning her safety. Which lead to her mind wandering down paths she swore to never go. Phoebe was her saving grace. The only person who saw something in her, up until the point of her arrival in Sanctum. Maybe they truly didn't know her father had tried to get in contact with her. Had left her a one worded, yet cryptic enough message on her phone. Luckily for her, she quickly snapped out of the illusion that was playing inside of her head. It didn't matter. Phoebe would make sure no harm came to her. She had to believe it. She did believe it. 

All in all, being loyal to Phoebe meant that she basically had no other choice than to give her allegiance to Thatcher. Everything in her screamed that.. if phoebe knew he was the person most everyone said he was, she wouldn't lie to them about it. She wouldn't lie to Lily. Would she? No. She wouldn't. That meant that the Italian girl was more than willing to place Thatcher high upon his pedistool. Besides, she'd had no proof that he had done any of the things everyone seemed to always throw in his direction any chance they got. He was the easiest target to fit the blame, but that didn't mean he done it. It probably didn't help that the female publicly displayed her taste in his looks. It did make sense either way you took Thatcher, toxic men had always been like a magnetic pull for her soul. Regardless, her loyalty belonged to Phoebe. And with extending it to Thatcher, as well, that only left Sophia.

Of course, Lily knew she owed everything she had now to the founder of The Organization. If it wasn't for Sophia, the girl had absolutely no idea where she would be at the point. Or, how she would be, at that. It still didn't ease her mind, though. It didn't give her the reassurance she needed to believe most everything she had been telling the group. She had locked them in a basement, for Satan's sake. Teaching them a lesson? Sure. Going about it? Not the best way. Especially considering the way Lily was forced to grow up. Mostly locked away. Nothing had sit right with the girl towards Sophia since those events. She always had an uneasy feeling, and basically hearing Thatcher confirm those suspicions only made her grow more anxious and standoffish towards one of the people she had formally worshiped. Even if it wasn't for long. 

Even though the thoughts swirled around inside of her head, one thing still remained clear: she'd remain completely loyal to all three. It was the only option.