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new love.
You swore off love because every relationship in your past left you bruised and scarred, battered and broken. You told yourself that it wasn’t worth it to let your guard down, that everyone was the same and you’d end up right back at square one. You had your heart ripped out of your chest so many times that you forgot what it was like to feel anything other than dread - love was a distant and foreign concept to you now, and though a piece of you wanted to remember the happiness you once felt in the presence of another, you didn’t know how.
You told yourself that it was easier to be alone, easier to not let anyone in close enough to see the most vulnerable pieces of you. Your heart was too fragile to be let down again after all of your previous attempts, and it wasn’t worth the risk.
You swore up and down that you wouldn’t fall in love.
Until he came along.
You tried to deny your feelings for him. You tried to tell yourself that it’ll never happen, that he wouldn’t feel the same. But then he smiled, and the butterflies in your stomach came to life after years of extinction, and suddenly everything that was once dull and lifeless, bloomed with a radiance of color that you had never seen before.
Every cheesy love song reminds you of him and that smile, and your heart feels like it’s ready to burst out of your chest from the amount of love you feel for him. You can’t get his laugh out of your head, and his f***ing eyes… you could stare into them all day.
Your love is still new, but it’s real. You leave things unspoken, but words won't ever compare to the way you look at each other in the late hours of the night when no one else is around. You share kisses under the covers, and your limbs are wrapped up comfortably with one another, and for the first time in a long time, you feel okay.
You feel at home. ♥
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