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perfect.
HAVE YOU EVER LOOKED UP THE DEFINITION OF PERFECT IN THE DICTIONARY? it says: having all the required or desired elements or absolute; complete. what nobody ever tells you is that perfect can vary from person to person, to environment, to worlds, perfect is only a mere concept that can be shifted to whatever the user most desires PERFECT for THEMSELVES. mental health has always been such an issue tiptoed around, like it's glass and it'll shatter but it's not glass, it'll never be glass, it's only collecting dust that way until it becomes completely NOTHING.
mary-sue, herself, is out there holding out her hands for anyone that needs them. she'll talk about recovery, she'll pull people out of gutters, dust them off and tell them they'll be okay. she'll use her powers to bring hope, to not only change a moment, but change someone's future but she can't, for the life of her, just in this moment continue to look kara directly into those mesmerizing blue eyes and act like she isn't having a hard time with the idea of perfect.
SHE FORGOT THE DICTIONARY DEFINITION and is only leaning on the shaky socialized version: that perfect isn't meant to be shaped for each user. instead her brain is only chanting 'i'm not perfect, i'm not perfect,' relying on the fact she's a pure mess, that sometimes she doesn't care to wake up in the morning, that even a hero like her just can't live. instead, she looks down at her phone, pushes the home button. she's not actually planning on doing anything, she's just looking away from kara. using a distraction to quell the rising lump in her throat, the chill along her spine like this was too good to be true.
But, you know what's the picture of both her lockscreen and home screen on her phone? It's Kara. The lockscreen a selfie of them, the home screen a picture someone took of Supergirl. SHE JUST LOOKS LIKE A FAN, nobody can seem to put two and two together that the woman laughing with mary-sue on the lockscreen is also the woman on her homescreen.
PERFECT IS ONLY A CONCEPT.
"So, you'll take everything then? Even the moments where I just can't do it? My whole entire messy ass?" She knows the answer before Mary-Sue even looks up.
All the desired pieces of the puzzles have come together and it's perfect.
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