Bowie sat at her desk with a pen in her hand and a piece of paper in front of her. She had been thinking lately, what would she tell her younger self? So she decided to write a letter to herself, of the things she wished she knew back then, because maybe then her life would be a little easier. It would have been good to have had some great advice to get through things. Growing up was always difficult for everyone, so much needed advice would have been welcomed.

 

Dear Eighteen Year Old Me,

Things are going to get difficult in the next few years, things are going to change a lot and you are going to end up in a dark place. You are going to lose two people in your life that you love dearly, and your heart is going to be crushed and your entire world is going to fall apart. You are really going to struggle. Things are going to be a huge struggle, and life isn’t going to be easy. You are going to feel like you can’t go on, and you are going to try and kill yourself. But if I knew then what I know now I wouldn’t have tried to do that. Things will get better and you will become happier. Yes you still suffer with depression, and anxiety and some days are harder than others, but you have people around you that love you and support you. They will help you to remain strong. So 18 year old me, when life gets hard in the next few years don’t try and harm yourself. Things will be okay. I am living proof of that.

Bowie put her pen down and folded up the piece of paper and placed it in her draw. If only she could send it to her past life, because, it would be good information to know. She had really struggled during that time period, losing her parents was the hardest thing she ever had to go through. Losing one parent was bad enough, but losing both at the same time was soul destroying, and almost killed her. Now she was thankful she had survived her suicide attempt. Although her life wasn’t perfect, she had a lot of people in her life that she loved dearly and couldn’t imagine not knowing them.