BLOG POST | normalcy.

Hello. Been awhile. Maybe a little too long, eh? Enough time for people to start worrying and speculating, but I promise I’m okay!

I’ve been thinking a lot about normalcy the last few weeks -- about how, in all this, I keep saying “when things are back to normal” but what is normal? In my life, normal has never really existed. My childhood was not unheard of, but definitely atypical. My career, my marriage, and even my own struggle now with sobriety and mental health ( let’s not even mention my sleep schedule, that's for another blog… ). If I were to define MY normal, I would say that it’s absolute chaos.

I’m used to unpredictability, to survival, to erratic schedules and erratic relationships. So, I guess, the “normal” I’m dreaming of when this is all said and done is not one I’m even very familiar with.

The “normalcy” I’m referring to is actually just stability? But the thought of that almost scares me a little. In a weird way, I think chaos has become my security blanket, and when I’m unsure of things, I run to it, because it’s what I know. It’s what I do. It’s… Casey? So, how do you break out of that and redefine yourself without feeling like you’ve lost what makes you, you? Without this chaos, who am I?

Maybe I’ve grown a little too comfortable in my disheveled persona, and maybe that’s why this has been such a roller coaster for me. I know -- boo hoo, woe is me, right?

I’m still moving forward the best I can. The last few weeks haven’t been easy ones. I’ve seen all your Tweets/messages/etc. about my trip to Vegas. Please don’t worry, I’ll be okay. We’re excited about our next event for AMT, as well as some details about our upcoming album ( we’ve teased about it long enough, we know ), and with a new album of course comes a new tour. Stay tuned!

For those who need it, my comment section and inbox are always open for you to discuss anything and find someone who might be struggling in the same way you are. They’re a safe space to find support, comfort or anything else. I can’t promise that I, myself, will be able to respond to EVERYTHING, but I’ll do the best I can. Thanks for reading.

’Til next time.