you never forget your first time
His phone wouldn’t stop, almost as if the moment that he declined the call another would come through. Fingers pushed through dark hair as he tried to ignore the constant annoyance filling the air, he needed to focus. Danny had a test coming up and he needed to focus, sure, maybe the school year would be over soon, maybe he would pass with perfect grades even if he didn’t show up. But that wouldn’t be acceptable, no, he was a Fenton, and Fenton’s passed with the best grades, they had the world in their hands and worked to make it better. He was a Fenton. The phone rang another time and he quickly grabbed it, lifting it to his ear,
“I’m not going out Sam!” he nearly yelled into the receiver before hearing the voice on the other line. He heard the plea, heard about how he had bailed on every party they had tried to get him to for the next four years, and how this might be the last time they ever hang out. He sighed, and nodded. “Fine...just...just for a few hours” he said softly to the girl on the other end of the phone. They were right, Danny wasn’t a good friend, he was always bailing on every party they planned, so focused on school work and pleasing his parents. He owed them this.
And so he set to work, hopped in the shower, dried off, pulled on a grey button up shirt and partially tucked it into a pair of dark jeans. Looking at himself in the mirror, even he knew that he looked like he wouldn't belong at a party, he looked uptight...boring. But he had made a promise, and promises were at least something he’d try his best to keep, no matter the outcome.
Within a few minutes he had his ear buds in, skateboard under his feet as he moved through the streets of Amity Park, heading to the location his friends had shared with him. As he skated up he could already hear the music of the loud house drowning out the earbuds that played into his ears, shaking his head. “What have i…”
The voice broke through everything as he watched the girl running out of the front of the house, dressed in black as always. Laughing he waved, kicking the board up and into his hands before Sam’s arms wrapped around him. “Hey” he said softly as he hugged the girl back and looked around, eyes falling on Tucker walking up, a bag of…”what are you guys…?”
“You promised us one night, one night of fun. Kanker gave us this for a good price” Tucker said as he looked around and Sam tugged at his shirt, pulling him to the house. “Just one fun night Danny, no one gets addicted their first time. You promised, one fun night.”
Those words held in his ears, he promised, and he kept his promises. So, against every screaming part of his mind, he nodded followed his two lifelong friends inside and to a table. They poured out a white powder out in front of him and his head dropped, feeling it all rush through his nostrils and start to take a grip on his mind.
It didn’t happen right away, Danny was about to complain to his friend’s about how the movies were just full of lies, but then he felt himself shift. Every worry about what college he was accepted to, which ones said no, they disappeared. He no longer felt that overbearing shadow of his father standing behind him, no longer felt the need to prove how smart he was to his mother, his older sister disappeared from his mind entirely. No, this was different, his eyes were open, clearer than they had ever been.
But as the realizations hit him, they ran away from him. The high that had gripped his mind had disappeared and panic quickly set in, eyes darted across the room before a pair of brown eyes met his. Before he knew it, he was being pulled through the party, the sea of teenagers being split apart by the blue haired figure leading him into a back room and pulling a Wonka Factory of things he did not recognize out of her bag.
“Have at it pretty boy.”
Danny looked around and nodded, the choices nearly overwhelming him before a pill was pushed between his lips, hearing that it would all be fun, that the first time was free. Slowly Danny began to fade out, that switch in his mind slowly shifting as his worldly worries disappeared as he pushed fingers through his dark hair yet again. Everything became easier, as if someone else was behind the wheel, making decisions for him
Danny was still there, just pushed back, tucked away and safe as through his eyes he watched whoever was in charge of his body have a great time. He watched as he approached cheerleaders who normally wouldn’t even give him the time of day, could even feel the sensation and joy as they pressed up against him, he could hear their laugh. But the words he said, the actions he took, they weren’t his.
The night continued, more pills and powders were pushed into his body and Danny just watched as his body moved on it’s own. As the party began to wind down, he watched as one of the cheerleaders, or one of the other girls he had spoken to that night approached him.
“Hey like you...need a ride like...home right?” she said and Danny felt the grin find a place on his lips as he nodded, “what’s your like...name?” the girl asked him.
“Daniel.” his voice filled his own ears but even Danny knew that it had belonged to someone else.
Someone that he wanted to be.