Activity Check 182: Playlist ii
I Think I’m OKAY --- Machine Gun Kelly
Watch me, take a good thing and f*** it all up in one night
Catch me, I'm the one on the run away from the headlights
No sleep, up all week wasting time with people I don't like
I think something's f***ing wrong with me
Mason has spent several years battling his addictive personality, his addictions to alcohol, Adderall, and Speed. When he is at his lowest points I think I’m OKAY by Machine Gun Kelly represents how he responds to everything going on around him. Mason can ruin his prolonged sobriety in one single night and has multiple times before. He takes a good thing and f***s it up in a single night or a single moment.
Someone To You --- BANNERS
And if the sun's upset and the sky goes cold
Then if the clouds get heavy and start to fall
I really need somebody to call my own
I wanna be somebody to someone
Mason hasn’t felt like someone important to anyone since his mother passed away and all he wants in this world is to feel important to a friend, a loved one, or a family member. Mason tries to be a good friend to those who are good to him, a wonderful lover to the people he is romantically involved with, and the perfect family member. He is always striving to be someone to someone and will extend himself in the process.
Better Off This Way --- A Day To Remember
When you fall I'll be the only one who looks away
When you call I'll be the first to tell you I can't stay
It's all over, I've found a better way
To help keep you from me
I'm better off this way
Mason listened to this song religiously when his girlfriend, at the time, Samantha left him while Sloane was in Hawaii. There had been many red flags in their relationship that he can identify now and knows that he is better off without her. This song reminds Mason that no matter what he is better off without Sam in his life.
In Between --- Beartooth
Life's so dark when every day is a struggle
Why go out and see the world on fire
Don't let your mindset become what controls you
Speak right now and make the choice to grow
Mason doesn’t make it well known that he struggles with mental health issues that continue to become increasingly worse as he ages. He has always stayed busy, involved, and out of his head in order not to deal with his mental health issues but now that Dollie is no longer in his life he isn’t sure how to distract himself. Even with Dani in his life, Mason has to remind himself that each morning is worth waking up and living. He has to remind himself that his mind isn’t going to control him and that he will live past his dark thoughts.
Without Walls --- Memphis May Fire
If you think that I take it to heart now you see this is my design.
You don't know the cost.
So I'll keep my faith and you can stay lost.
Who is with me? We have the strength to shed light.
This isn’t the best song to depict Mason’s relationship with God but it is best to show his relationship with faith. While Mason’s relationship with God has waived throughout his life, his faith has always stayed true. He knows what he believes in even if he has a strained relationship with God and that will always be the case for him.