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02/21/2018 06:16 PM 

Hope-

'Hope'


(The bravery of Children SL )

(Set in the past)




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Beyond the buildings, where the trees and rubble met. When the sun would rise and paint the decaying stone in rivers of orange and gold... Where the city almost looked beautiful... Not war torn or desolate... And where you couldn't see the wall in the distance....

Where you could almost feel free, and you could pretend to be anything you wanted to be... That is where I noticed it!

 

Something blue twinkling through my dirty window pane back at me.... I squinted and leaned closer to the window, wishing I could open it.  Wishing it was bigger, cleaner...

It wasn't a reflection from the crystal in my hand. It couldn't be! Yet it was definitely glimmering....

Was it magic?.. Like the real magic I'd read in books.

 

Was this what my Mother had meant, when she told me to ready... That one day I'd find myself a breast a wave so big... That it would take me so far, far away, that I wouldn't have to see the wall. .or be trapped behind it any more.

 

Thinking of it, it my heart beat fast, I could feel it in my chest, the excitement building!

To never have to come back here . To never have to push my dresser in front of my door, or hear my fathers footsteps as the ascended the staircase. His voice full of vengeance as he told me he was doing it, hurting me for my own good.

 

I glanced up from the twinkling crystal in my hand half scared to look back out the window. What if it was gone. The blue light that twinkled like a star in the distance... What if I'd wanted it so bad...I'd imagined it all..

Quickly I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. My heart was racing, even more then before!

Scrunching my face I looked back towards the window and tried to slowly open one eye...

I was afraid. I was afraid my heart would sink...and at the moment, it felt like disappointment was more scary then anything else I could imagine!

I knew the burden of despair. I knew loneliness, it was the only friend I had.

 

Was it..it was! It was still there!! Excitedly I leaned closer pressing my face against the dirty pane. I wished I could fly! I wished I could fly right out this window, Right now! I wished I could fly  to where i could ride the waves.

 

I wished the window would open.




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It wouldn't. It didn't.   It wasn't really a window. It was a wall of glass. It's true purpose to torment me, to let me look beyond the walls at the world I could never have. A world I rarely got to escape into....

He was coming. I hear the heaviness of his footsteps, the way they thudded upon each stair like the approaching sound of doom.

Quickly I dared one last g lance out the window, before  rushing back to my bed and scrambling to hide the crystal at the bottom of the worn out blanket box beneath.

And as I turned sitting upon the edge of my bed, I saw the door knob slowly turn. I heard his voice..

 

"When will you ever learn Tobias!....Do you think I enjoy doing this?.....Do you?"

His eyes. They said yes! Even if his words didnt.

I wasn't going to cry. I wasn't going to scream. I wasn't going to show him he was hurting me. I was going to think of the blue crystal and whatever it was out there beyond the city that beckoned me...

It was what I told myself as I shook my head, giving him the response he wanted. The response he was waiting for.

 

But somewhere between the lashes, the searing pain and my blood soaked bed sheets. I lost my hope. Somewhere between my sobs as they caught in my tear soaked pillow, i wanted to die. And somewhere between it all, I remembered nothing at all.

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The sun it streamed through the long narrow window pane. It hurt my eyes . They felt sore, but not as sore as my body. I rubbed my face against my pillow and listened for any noise echoing up from down stairs.  My pillow had dried and the house, it was silent. My Father, he'd already left. And I was excused from having to attend the compounds school!

It was always the way after he'd taught me a lesson. A day to clean myself up, to clean my bedding, a day to ensure he hadn't bruised me, cut me where other would notice...



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My skin, it felt like it was ripping apart the fresh wounds reopening as I bent my elbows and arched my back. It felt like I was covered in sandpaper that ripped, tearing at my flesh. It would feel better, it wouldn't hurt so much once I'd had a shower.

 

 

I just had to move careful, not turn or twist to fast...And it would soon be over! As soon as I discovered what it was I'd seen the night before!

The thought... It was all I could think about! I'd wanted to die, I'd forgot about it for a while...and now. Now I wanted to live! I wanted to dream, I wanted to fly, I wanted to be free!

 

I ignored the searing pain as the hot water hit my back,  I ignored the  way it was hard to breath as i twisted trying to put on my shirt and the throbbing aches that never subsided as I gathered up my bedsheets and placed in a trough to soak.

I ignored it all as I slowly opened the back door and checked to make sure it was safe, before leaving..

 

 

The sky was blue. Not a cloud in sight.. The sun was shinning and every part of me felt alive!

Quickly I slipped between the falling buildings, making sure that I wasn't spotted or seen.

I'd marked the location in my mind. It was the last thing I'd done as I'd turned from the window the night before...

 

This was it! This was my destiny! And I couldn't help but smile as I raced towards it.. It could have been anything. It could have been nothing at all.....It didnt matter as long as that wave would come and take me away from it all.....

 



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And as I entered into the tree lining beyond the fallen buildings.. I knew I wouldn't give up! I would search and I would stay all day if I had too.

 I would wait for whatever the twinkling blue star and my glowing crystal.. were trying to show me!



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