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"Gavin, Gavin, open this door" yelled Leslie Crawford the mother of Kyle. Who was dating Gavin and now is buried six feet under because of Stu macher. Beside her is Mr Loomis on the phone with the police. Loud crashing noises can be heard coming from within the room. Loud music can be heard as well  "just hurry" said Mr Loomis before hanging up. He bangs on the door "Gavin, open this door" In the bedroom there are overturned items, broken things and a mess everywhere. A bat in Gavin's hands as he continued smashing things. It has been two months since everything has happened. Burying his boyfriend, testifying in a trial related to what his brother and Stu have done. Two months that he has tried to keep it together. The pain from where Stu stabbed him is what brings Gavin to his knees. Fresh tears spilled down his face. Lifting up the white shirt, he can see a bit of blood on the bandages. The physical wounds are still healing."Sh*t" he said realizing that somehow the stitches must have been pulled. He lets the shirt go back down then that is when his hazel eyes gazed at what caused this breakdown. The ghost face mask. The one Gavin used for Halloween. The only one he got to celebrate with Billy. The anger returned making the pain fade from his mind. Gavin grabbed the bat and struck it on the mask "you f***ing did this" he screamed, smashing the mask over and over with the bat.Outside two police cars pulled up to the Loomis home. The front door is already open for them. As they entered and rushed up the stairs. The door is kicked in and Gavin turns around. swinging the bat towards whoever it is. One moment he was standing then the next he was on the ground.  The bat out of his hands. A scream of anguish erupts out of Gavin. As the two cops subdue him and try to get him calmed down. "LET ME GO" Gavin screamed while trashing about in the cops restraints. A laughing voice taunts him "they think you're crazy" said the voice. "Shut up, leave me alone" Gavin shouted at the mask. Mrs Crawford left so not to see what is happening. "Dad, please tell them I'm not crazy" Gavin pleads with the man that could help or break him even more. Mr Loomis left the room as well. As EMTs arrived and injected Gavin with a drug to calm him down. Gavin is transported to the nearby hospital. The mask is collected as evidence or to just get rid of it. The mask has caused enough problems for one town. 

Here me, mortal and gods alike!  These are my laws and you shall abide!  Beauty though I am, mistaken me not for some desperate whore!  I do not need to bed you.  Approach me in such a manner results in instant death.I remain IC unless indicated otherwise.Be literate.  There are tons of programs that can help you write a coherent sentence.  There is no excuse.  I, personally, use Grammarly.Since there is an absence of Poseidon, just assume Amphitrite is separated from her husband.I will happily agree to writing in the past, ancient times, or modern. 

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Full Name: Helblindi LaufeysonNickname(s): Helby, Red, Crimson Frost, Age: A few thousand DOB: Might be a Scorpio ♏️ POB: JotunnheimSex: MaleSpecies: Frost Giant / JotunnOrientation: Bisexual - Male LeanProfession: God of Manipulation (mind & senses)Height: 5'10"Eye Color: Dull shade of GreenHair Color: Crimson/RedBody: Slim & Slender build. Pale skin.Tattoos: None 

 Who were the Vanir?                                                          (This is a collection of thoughts about the Vanir that I have gathered and are not all my own).As in so many cultures, ancient stories have survived through the centuries describing people who lived mysteriously close to the elements of the earth and were worshippers of nature. There are many examples of these and usually, they are labeled pagans. But in the case of Norse mythology, the Vanir, who …were gods of love, sex, wealth, and magic….truly adored the earth, skies, wind, and fire.                        In the words of our own King of Gymirsgard, Russell Lamara EOA,“As a warrior of Asgard, he was accustomed to the company of gods and goddesses, but there was something about Vanaheim, the realm of the Vanir, that stirred a different kind of excitement within him. It was a place where nature and magic intertwined seamlessly, and where the gods and goddesses radiated an ethereal beauty that was captivating and irresistible.” I wanted to write a resource for myself and others, gathering as many ideas about these interesting people. (I would appreciate and welcome any additional beliefs. This piece is heavy on the viewpoint according to Myth. Many comics have borrowed from myth…but the comic writers have also written them in their own ways.In Norse Mythology, Vanir gods and goddesses weren’t the central deities like the Aesir. However, this does not discount them as gods. The Vanir were a separate pantheon altogether. Their powers were intrinsically linked to the natural world. These gods and goddesses of agriculture, fertility, fair weather, and precious metals may have been few, but their influence over ancient Scandinavian societies is undeniable.In general, the Vanir were differentiated from the Aesir by their patronage of and association with fertility, maritime life (especially navigation), and material success. Further, they (especially Freyja) were associated with prophecy and the magical arts. Their differences with the Aesir also include sexual behaviors, as they were said to have practiced endogamy and even incest. The Vanir were overall a passionate, lascivious lot.Vanir worships the Skies, Wind, and their Deities. They are skilled warriors, (even as they much prefer peace,) and shipwrights and navigators who can sail the seas.                   They were humble and according to themselves, were not held in high regard. They have been witnessed to great acts of courage. Additionally, they share some of the values and ancient bloodlines with the Fey and some even maintain connections to other planes. In my reading, I have been impressed by their connections to the Sidhe. This would be because of their many similar characteristics. The Vanir, especially women who are called, Volur are gifted in magics. In the Vanirian culture, magic is referred to as Seidr. These women are involved in both ‘seeing’ and affecting the future. They, like elves, have protective and fertility powers and healing powers.Vanir are gifted in their mental as well as physical strength. They are lovers of nature and have a deep curiosity for the arts. Many light elves live in the Asgardian land of Alfheim but have intermarried with the Vanir in Vanaheim.These are just a few conclusions I have drawn about the Vanir and will continue to add to this journal.                              

    Italic = susceptible to changeBold = YesItalic bold = likes it very muchIs submissive // is dominant // prefers to top // prefers to bottom // likes to switch // identifies as heterosexual // identifies as homosexual // identifies as bisexual // identifies as pansexual // identifies as demisexual // identifies as asexual // enjoys sex with men // enjoys sex with women // enjoys sex with multiple people at once // initiates // waits for partner to initiate // spits // swallows // prefers sex in the morning // prefers sex at night // prefers sex anytime // no sex drive // low sex drive // average sex drive // high sex drive // fluctuating sex drive*/— body / appearanceSmall build // medium build // athletic build // muscular build // curvy build // voluptuous build // wears boxers // wears lingerie // goes ‘commando’ // shaves/waxes // doesn’t shave/wax // cup size a-c // cup size d-f // 1-5” in length // 6-9" in length // 10” or over in length */— soundsIs silent/makes little to no sounds // is very quiet // is very loud // grows in volume over time // bites partner // pillow to muffle themselves // calls out partner’s name // curses // fakes or exaggerates // prefers a quiet partner // prefers a loud partner // is turned on by dirty talk // is turned off by vulgar talk*/— turn ons / kinksHaving their hands pinned // pinning their partner’s hands // having their hair pulled // pulling their partner’s hair // being watched by partner // being watched by third party // watching their partner // receiving oral // giving oral // calling their partner ‘daddy’ // being called ‘daddy’ // giving praise // receiving praise // biting/marking // being bitten/marked // spanking // being spanked // teasing // being teased // having toys used on them // using toys on partner // giving anal // receiving anal // being rimmed // rimming // choking // being choked // being tied up // tying their partner up // being worshiped // worshiping their partner // humiliating // being humiliated // degrading // being degraded // knife play // blood play

Year: 1976Summary: Born in the rough predominantly Italian-American neighborhood of the North End in Boston, Massachusetts, Joe was born into a middle-class family and showed interest in music at a very young age. He would acquire his first guitar at the age of 12, then proceed to drop out of high school at the age of 16 to pursue a career in a rock band. Unlike most parents, Joe's were not opposed to his rebellious decisions to grow out his hair and enslave himself to the rock n' roll craze.At the age of nineteen, Joe was drafted into the Vietnam War in 1969. He started amateur boxing in his early teens and he continued training in the sport since then, giving him a strong lead in the short time he would spend at boot camp with other draftees. It was killing the enemy and those who may be associated with them that would be difficult. Gunning down the adolescent recruits of the Viet Cong took its toll on him. Performing duties as a tunnel rat was just as volatile. His suspenseful time in the jungles of Vietnam has hardened his body and soul.Honorably discharged in 1972 with a Purple Heart medal after sustaining a critical bullet wound, Joe found it very difficult to readjust to civilian life. A few times, he contemplated suicide. The only attempt on his life failed. Joe was only engaged in one serious relationship his whole life, that abuse he could no longer endure, and gained guardianship of his two-year-old son, Roman. Playing small-time gigs at pubs, festivals, and the state fair, Joe has very little ambition. Due to untreated post-traumatic stress disorder, fatherhood was another loop he had to jump through to continue his life normally.

  I remember us before our paths got separated ambushI shall sing you safe on your way Astarion's posture changed entirely. Shoulders hunched forward, his fingers flexed into a twitching, clawed grasp, and his eyes throbbed with a bright crimson glow. Not glowing from hunger, as they'd always done while in Cazador's thrall. They shone with something else. A killer's instinct to kill, a protector's instinct to protect.He was off, barreling through the forest on nothing but scent and anger. Fenris's blood smelled sweet, addictive, like sun-warmed honey, and it had a strange added note of a cold, sharp tang--the lyrium. The combined scent filtered through the trees, faintly, but it was enough. He would only get closer by chasing it.He could smell that sickening, putrid smell of half-orc as well. And other scents layered behind those. Astarion's senses had increased dramatically upon this change in psyche; he could smell everything even better than normal.The vampire crossed through the forest easily, silently, quickly, knowing the terrain well from his mornings spent hunting. The sun wasn't so bright here--the groves were shaded, but his eyesight was so sensitive now that to stare too far ahead through the trees physically hurt him. He did it anyway, and hissed, breaking his own swift and silent approach as he did so.The hiss was because he'd passed into the meadow before the river. He'd seen it before, and hadn't crossed it--it would weaken him. There was a bridge, but it was miles away, and the forest had sustained him on small animals; he hadn't needed to travel farther out.But he could smell them there, could perhaps even see them if the sun's glare hadn't burned into his eyes so much. The hiss was a reckless vampire's attempt at a curse, because he already knew what was going to happen as he approached.The river was wide, but shallow, and he'd searched the banks thoroughly while hunting nearby. There were no short spans where he could jump from one bank to another, no brush or rocks laid out nicely to give him passage without touching the hated liquid. Yet he'd watched a family of deer toddle across the shallows one morning as they drank and watched the sunrise: near him, but never knowing it.He was going to do as they did, and cross the whole damned thing. Unlike the deer, he hit the river at a dead run, not pausing as he moved, not needing to thanks to his supernatural balance. Still, it burned, ached--had he not been so angry, it likely would have brought him to his knees, and then he would have been lost. Astarion's flesh on the inside of his shoes was hissing, fizzing as if he stepped through pure venom. But he barely lost speed, taking the far bank at a jump when he was near enough.Another hiss, this time from the pain, but it fell short on his lips. He could sense them, they were there, ahead. Fenris's life energy seemed to throb and glow through the forest, calling from between the trees like a lantern aimed directly for him. But it was flickering, fading, which only launched him at the group faster. As Astarion approached the fray, he noted everything he needed to note, quickly--One dead, crumpled by Fenris, the source of the stench, with blood pooled around his groin. Fenris, held down by an unsavory looking mercenary, his dark strands of hair grease-streaked. Two more were approaching; they had bindings in hand, ready to shackle the former slave--one had picked up his crossbow at the sound of the elf approaching, and he was quick enough that he'd already fired. Astarion remembered as the bolt left its machine that he had a wealth of weapons on his back, though he had no desire for them at the moment.Still, better safe than letting the one with a trigger nearby get any farther. He was only forty, thirty feet away, but he pivoted, dodging the bolt, and in the same movement, a throwing knife was grabbed, thrown. It met the shooter's neck as the next ten feet of gap closed between them. The man grunted, then gargled, and even the sweet sound of his own blood pooling in his mouth didn't sway Astarion from his true target.The one who held Fenris, the tallest of the group, barely had time to loosen his grip, or turn his torso to face the oncoming torpedo of a vampire. It didn't matter anyway; Astarion's lunge was so quick that he was little more than a blur to Fenris and the other remaining merc. The third man, ignored by the vampire at the moment, fumbled between staring at first his downed partner and the knife in his throat, second, the other dead merc's gory nether region, and finally down at his crossbow, which was unloaded.The leader of the group was thrown back and away from his prize; Astarion could have stayed on him, leapt with him, but he wanted to throw the bastard around, break his bones first. And so he tossed him instead, crossing over Fenris in seconds, grabbing the fumbling man and angrily throwing him a second time, even farther away from the group, before he turned to the other--the spare.Astarion's dagger was out and in his palm immediately, but his explosive thrust forward into the other's chest was so fierce that his entire arm buried into the ribcage, his fist exploding out the back, splintering spinal bones with it, the heart impaled on the now crimson blade. With a sickening noise, the rogue wrenched the dagger back out, flinging the organ off it with a squelch. Well, so much for the shirt he desperately wanted to keep free and clean of blood.No matter, he couldn't waste a second moment on that corpse. The moment was to be spent on the ringleader, whose nasally voice had filtered into Astarion's ears earlier, either from Fenris's bond, or from his enhanced hearing. Somehow, his insult to Fenris only made Astarion boil that much more.So much for leadership--he was now the sole survivor of his little gang of miscreants, and he looked terrified.It didn't matter, he wouldn't survive long. Astarion couldn't draw this out; Fenris was still hurt.The man had been thrown with such force that he still hadn't righted himself, and his last chance to do so ended when Astarion approached and stomped down on the merc's knee, shattering it with a strangely loud plop under his wet boot, where his own skin still screamed in pain against dripping leather.Another stomp for the other leg, but the bastard twitched and he missed the knee, instead landing it on both of the lower bones of the leg. Those crunches were far quieter, but the howls of pain were far louder, sweeter. Astarion ground the ball of his foot into the calf as if quelling embers, and then idly kicked the torso so the other was fully on his back.As they'd done to Fenris. The bandit was babbling--nonsense words, probably a prayer, and he was fumbling through his pockets for something. A knife.Astarion had set to pounce on him, but at this he drew back, grimly, curious to see what would happen. Crimson glowing eyes fell to the mercenary's shaky hand, covered in blood--Fenris's blood--Astarion snarled, again losing any patience or finesse or will to see the bastard suffer exquisitely for hours. He was going to give his head the same treatment as his legs.Then, through his murderous rage, he had one singular thought. A good thought! It was a splendid thought. A thought worthy of a rogue.He kicked the knife away and pulled the now lame mercenary to his bleeding, broken legs, only to sink his teeth into the other's flesh. Even the most disgusting, unwashed human still tasted exquisite to him, especially compared to two centuries' worth of rats. The vampire groaned despite himself as he tasted the warm blood, and he purposely washed his mouth, his neck with it, feeling his thin shirt stick to his chest. The Chantry sisters would never; he would need a new shirt, he supposed.But the thought of this stain bleeding in vain, and having his blood wasted was a delightful one, and besides, the shirt was already past hope.Several quiet moments of hungrily inhaling the blood passed, while the man thrashed and screamed in vain. Then, rather unexpectedly, Astarion licked the torn ragged edged puncture wounds--he'd purposely made them uneven and too deep. His saliva sealed the blood, at least partially; he shoved the leader of the mercenaries back down to the forest floor. With a final gulp of what was left behind in his throat, and a sneer, he throatily explained, "YOU are going to answer every question of mine. Soon."His eyes lit up more brightly at this promise, while the other man simply gasped for air and clawed at his neck wounds. Astarion looked over him one last time, and then pondered that he might have more hidden blades. His dagger swiftly found the other's forearm, and behind it, the dirt, pinning the tendon and muscle into the ground.Should do for a moment.Then he turned, forgetting the wretched thing entirely when he saw Fenris on the ground. Sh*t sh*t sh*t."Fenris," Astarion said in a rather clipped, commanding tone, as if he expected the other to yawn and awaken with bedhead. He knelt beside the other, and at first Astarion could only inhale, sensing the slow, but strong, heartbeat.Good. But…not normal. Fenris was in there, his heartbeat was like a beautiful song, but it should have been faster. It shouldn't have been so strong, it should have been calm. Something was off. It was a toxin, the elf could tell. He smelled it, too. The same smell as the one Fenris took from the mercenaries the same day they met.When Astarion remembered the purple vial, he licked his lips; his eyes dropped from the wide, green hues of his companion. There was a wound immediately visible, a bolt lodged into a weak spot near a collarbone, and Astarion immediately withdrew it, tossing it away carelessly as he searched for more, his fingers brushing against the wound as if to test it.He'd known where the other was going to be. He'd felt it hit. Their bond meant that he was able to find it almost instantly, and withdraw the bolt from the other's ribs as well. Dammit. Astarion knew the poison, had already attempted to extract it, but he had meager alchemy supplies here to make a proper antidote. They were days away from it, if not weeks. Dammit, DAMMIT.He could only repeat the curses in his mind as he unhooked the armor plate again, exposing both wounds to him. One was deeper--the collarbone bolt. It had been shot from intensely close range. The bastards. Astarion had done it in the recent past, and knew it was to save Fenris the work of processing the full hit of the toxin, so he should have felt no qualms about lowering his head to the wound and attempting to take any lingering, pooling poison out.He was immortal, it didn't affect him. But the vampire hesitated, with a face full of blood and wild hair and eyes. Fenris would know. There would be no denying it after this.He could lose him.Well, that didn’t matter, the warrior needed him. He held Fenris, cradling him as his head dipped to the other's collarbone, ripping away the leather to make a better seal for his lips. Astarion grimaced as he drank; it was bitter. Wrong. At first, the poison numbed his tongue and turned his stomach, but after several long gulps of the otherwise delicious blood, he could taste the sweetness and warmth returning. The poison was diluting.He quickly moved after a rather bloody lick and heady kiss to the first wound, sliding down across the dirt in a predatory-looking way. Astarion again pulled the frayed leather and torn cloth aside to repeat the gesture for the other wound. The taste was less bitter there, but it lingered for longer in his mouth; as he fed, Astarion realized he was gripping Fenris, pinning him, without meaning to.Instantly he righted, letting go of the other's body as if he were hot to the touch, and his eyes widened, the glow fading from them as he leaned over Fenris, cradling the warrior's bloodstained hair with his own bloodstained hands and finally meeting the other's eyes, grimacing inwardly at the shame he felt. Being seen like this. Worse than an animal. Bloodthirsty. Gods, he hadn't even explained what he was doing to Fenris. The other elf probably thought Astarion was simply getting his kicks on drinking his blood. Ugh. How he hated himself.Astarion's voice was still low and throaty, not his usual high-pitched, bantering tone, when he managed words. "Darling," he said apologetically, and stopped caressing the other's face long enough to pull his own forearm toward him, biting into the flesh below his wrist, where the blood would lazily drip into pools that, if nothing else, could land on the other's tongue. As he bit, Astarion's eyes drifted toward their little would-be captor.Still down, still screaming, still impaled by a dagger, still broken. Good.The flicker of his vision moved immediately back to what was most important; he held out his arm encouragingly, trying to overcome his own grimace at what was, perhaps, an unwilling feeding of blood. He knew how it felt. He'd been forced to drink before. He didn't want to put this on Fenris.But Astarion explained himself, his need, as he pressed the skin to his lover's lips. "I'm so sorry. 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EZRA MOONWHO ARE YOU REALLY? All the best friends I've ever had have been drowned by the dust.  You have crept in the tree of an old oak village I once knew before I was bornAway I have found a way to the one I've felt for years The warriors were content to beat their brains against the charm-turned-prison; this thing, this…demon?--had turned his magic against him, and to be frank, Gale couldn’t concentrate on counteracting it as long as Astarion was outside of the orb, being held in place by the thing’s lightning spell.  Magic coursed up from the sticky, tar-covered ground and surged through the vampire.  Karlach seemed to make the most progress against their orb, but just as her feet slid forward, they moved back and she cursed when her own heat moved in a wave against her.  They were trapped–at least for the moment, but the wizard felt his heart leap with hope anyway when the lightning finally dissipated.  Astarion stumbled to the ground, groaning as he fought to keep from going to his knees.The bastard still had strength to fight.  But just as Gale, and in front of him, Minsc, moved to celebrate, they saw the horror-stricken look on the white-haired elf’s face.  “Astarion! Focus! Don’t let it–whatever it did in your head! Shadowheart, can you cast gui–”“Already trying,” she said sternly, amid the chaos of the prison bubble, where their own magic stirred within, unable to leave its confines.  Karlach shouted, drowning out both spellcasters.  “ASTARION! ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?”So to the point, that one.  Gale gripped his staff unnaturally firmly as he awaited the elf’s answer.  Astarion’s red eyes were round, frightened, and they glinted against the pale purple shimmer of magic as he surveyed the gap between his friends, and the demon that finally released him.  It was only moments being in the thrall of the thing, but the group had no way of knowing just how long those moments felt. Or how painful they were.  “I…I saw…my memories,” he said in a faint voice, regarding the creature with a new kind of fear.  Terror, really.  Gale cursed inwardly; that could be very bad.  Aloud, he voiced in what he hoped was a helpful tone, “Don’t believe its visions–it can make anything seem true!”The demon-thing chuckled, a warbled noise that almost sounded birdlike.  Astarion rose to his full height, finally, out of breath.  His hair and eyes were both wild as he turned toward the group.  “No, no–it was real.  It was my real memories.  I had no idea…I…”“BE CAREFUL!” Karlach advised ever so loudly, as she picked up her axe again.  In a lower tone, she growled, “I’m going to burst this goddamn bubble with pure anger, DAMMIT ALL!!”“Do us all the favor, please,” Lae’Zel hissed.  But as the warriors focused on the magic again, Gale’s eyes were only on the elf beyond.  The demon, in its tattered robes, had begun floating across the blackness toward Astarion, a seemingly hungry look in what Gale supposed were its beady, hate-filled eyes.It had said something earlier.  Something not good.  Gale struggled to understand, to piece together meanings.  It wanted Astarion’s soul. A soul the vampire was certain he’d never had.  Several in the group had their doubts about this, and though they conversed quietly when he wasn’t around, no one quite had the heart or nerve to bring it up to the rogue officially.  Besides, it was just a theory, based on several observations.  It held no water.Well, until NOW, with a bloody demon vocalizing its want for the supposedly-existing-soul.  Of course Astarion didn’t just have any regular soul, either, apparently.  Gale was cursing himself for not knowing more of Astarion’s background, and more of Elven souls, when he heard a sound from nearby.  A voice.  No, two voices.  Plus a dog barking, loudly.  Ah, Gods, had someone found them?  He recognized the bark as Scratch’s.  Then the first voice.  Halsin’s.  Wyll answered, then bellowed down the cavernous hole.  Good grief, were they actually close to civilization?  Maybe this nightmare would end soon.  Hopefully, with Astarion in one piece.—--------------------He didn’t even see the creature move to consume him again.  It was simply there, rapidly in his space, the roar of his companions fading to nothing in Astarion’s ears.  He was standing, at least–he thought he was–and he tried very hard to look away from the twinkling, crustacean-like eyestalks that peered from the darkness toward him.Its voice was a resonant claw with a painful grasp, a murky river that reflected nothing on its surface.  I HAVE SO MUCH TO OFFER YOU.  “I doubt that,” Astarion sneered aloud, not knowing whether or not he’d imagined the booming words.  They reverberated still, in his head, and he felt something–a tentacle? A claw?--tighten around his neck.  He gasped and clawed at his throat, but there was nothing there.“Stop this,” he hissed, as if the most powerful enemy they’d ever faced was nothing but an annoying child; again, his feet rose from the floor, again he was caught in its web.  It was thinking, he realized….it contemplated, it mused on what to do with him.  He was struggling for air.  But he didn’t need it–it was a comfort, though one he badly wanted.  The rogue had lost his weapons…where had they gone?“I am no mage,” it continued to hiss, “I have an army at my command.  All you must do is sacrifice this hell you live, for a heaven.  A happier spot.  Then your troubles will fade, and I gain a new conduit of power to separate, to make a realm.  A new home.  As your people did.”  This last part was a tease–it had learned something from him, and was now teasing him about it.  Astarion fought, struggling even now to recall the newly uncovered memories.  His mind felt like a bruised apple; hardy at one point, but softening with each blow, and soon destined to become a tasty, if unappetizing looking, treat for someone else.  “I can’t,” he choked, sagging against the sensation finally.  His feet kicked no more; he was done.  Somewhere, Gale was yelling, but Astarion couldn’t make out the words.  He didn’t even know what it was he ‘couldn’t’ do.  Was he turning down the creature’s offer?  Or saying he could no longer listen?  He didn’t know.  His eyes were closed; this felt so similar to many nights caught in Cazador’s cruel web of torture.  He could simply float away, and come back later.  If his body was able to come back later.Astarion felt as if he were drifting into a pleasant sleep, and the last thing he heard was the creature smugly offering, “I have learned you, elf….now, let me show you a taste.  Of what can be yours.”Don’t you ache for silence, for stillness?For the love you’ve never had?It was a woman’s voice…kind.Don’t you wish to go home?Home? Where was home? What was home?“You cannot tempt me,” Astarion panted, and he was surprised to hear how small his voice was.  He needed to call, for help.  From someone.  Who?Please, Astarion.  Come home.  Then it was all darkness and silence.—----------------Astarion opened his eyes, startled.  He felt a great rush of wind at his back, and someone ran past him, cursing in an unfamiliar language.  Who was that?  An elf, with white hair.  She wore an emerald, velvet dress.  His sister.  What was her name again?“You could at least close the door for yourself!  That snowstorm is frightful! Don’t even see how you made it here at all.”“His arms are full, give the poor man a break!”  The sharp voice of the wizard was a surprise to Astarion.  He turned, realizing two things at once–firstly, several others had entered with him, one being Gale–and two, everyone in the group carried heavy parcels.  Wrapped.Presents.  For what?  They were all bundled up in winter finery, too, even Karlach.  Astarion stared at his friend, realizing that she wasn’t….well…smoldering.  The telltale ticking of her infernal engine, which he heard anytime he listened, was gone.  She didn’t have the engine.  She had…he listened….a heartbeat!  Even more strangely, she was in a regal black gown, with a black fur coat.  She looked less like a warrior and more like a dark queen, more radiant than anything on the Material Plane.  Despite his confusion, Astarion’s heart soared, and Karlach moved past him, her arms full of boxes, and she scooped up his armful as she passed by.  Her eyebrow arched.  “What are you looking at me like that for?”“I….”“It’s the dress, idn’t it? I know, I can already feel the chafi–”“He’s just captivated by your beauty,” Gale said easily, clapping Astarion on the shoulder as he moved past.  The wizard spun, pointing in a vaguely upstairs direction.  “Am I to assume we’re rooming in the same spot as last season?  Third floor, west corridor?” As if to explain his ask, he nodded, “I know I rode in with you all, but I had a farther journey!”“You took a portal,” Karlach snorted.  The group that spilled into the large main hall were in a huge, warmly lit manor that seemed all-too-familiar to Astarion.  From where?  Marble floors.  Warm, buttery candlelight, reflected by magic and made brighter.  A crackling hearth in the ballroom, and a large white tree at the head of the magnificent entry room, decorated in baubles for the winter holiday.  This was Baldur’s Gate, he remembered.  This palace belonged to…it was…whose was it?  He fought, wrestling with the lack of memory as Gale continued, “Come, Tara!”The tressym leapt from behind Astarion, who finally turned to look behind him where they’d entered.  His sister had shut the door, but he doubled back to stare out one of the frosted windows.  After wiping his palm across the ice, Astarion nearly jumped; the ice bit his fingers with an unfamiliar sting of cold.  He stared at peach-toned digits.  Fingers, not claws. He turned his hand over.  Was he….alive?Eyes widened dramatically, and he peered out the glass at what little he could see.  A large carriage was pulling away from the snow-covered entrance, and behind it were more, waiting for their turn to drop off their cargo.  A party, he recalled, as if someone slipped him the memory on a note.  A party for the holiday.  Midwinter.  He had another memory resurface with this; he recalled standing on a spire, balancing, practicing ballroom dance moves.  Was that how he’d learned?  Why had he been outside in the cold?  Astarion’s palms moved down his own jacket front.  It was luxurious.  Silk and embroidery.  Silver and blue.  Just as he peered into the window glass, seeking his own reflection, another hearty voice called out.  “There you are!  Wondered if I was going to have to send in an ice dragon to find you in this.”  It was a warm, matronly tone; he spun on his heel, nearly tripping toward the beloved woman.  “Kaylessa!”And then it all flooded back to him.  His home, in the Star Elf cloister.  His parents, his siblings, his upbringing.  The other realm, the before.  Kaylessa beamed as if pleased at his sudden inrush of memories; she brought her adopted son into a crushingly-tight hug, which he heartily returned, burying his nose onto her shoulder and inhaling deeply.  Rosemary.  Firelight.  She was his family.  He remembered.  Gods, it was good to be home.  In his family’s palace.  Of course.  They’d all come here together once their realm was beyond repair–once it had been overrun with intruders.  “I missed you too, Little Star,” she said with a heavy-handed pat on his back; he smirked.  Just as she’d done when he was little.  Now he was a bit more sturdy, but she still steered him farther into the ballroom, moving toward an adjacent sitting area near a fireplace.  It seemed many more partygoers congregated here, but Astarion looked around at the wider scene.  Karlach was already moving the mountainous pile of presents toward the white tree at the front of the room.  They toppled and she laughed, eagerly scooping them back up and trying to make the mountain as presentable as the pristinely-decorated tree.  Gale, true to form, was heading for his bedroom first, despite being lavishly dressed; he was peppy, chatting with Tara as he ascended the staircase.   Astarion’s other companions were here–they greeted each other as a smile wound its way onto the elf’s lips.  Another carriage was waiting to disembark; his siblings bickered about standing behind the massive door to shut it yet again, or call a servant. He intended to move back toward them; he could handle the door.  He was already overwhelmed with everything; perhaps being a doorman would afford him a break–“And have Nessa go talk to the chefs and servers, we’re going to need more–Astarion!”  The voice was musical, light; his head snapped back to the sitting area, where she waltzed, weaving between the plush sofas in an extravagantly beautiful white silk dress.  He knew her.  He’d seen her.  His whole life, hadn’t he?“More Astarion, indeed,” Kaylessa tutted, patting his back again before she departed with a smile.  “Mother,” he said in a very small voice, and Astarion let her approach him.  Her hug was the opposite of his other mother’s; the Star Elf was lithe, dainty, chill to the touch, she smelled of twilight and wood smoke.  Her white curls were down, instead of in their usual braid.  And as a sign of her royal lineage, she wore a dainty circlet on her head.  “My little star,” she cooed, and their embrace was fragile, sweet.  Why did he feel like bursting into tears?  As if to explain his tremble, Astarion said with an inhale, “I’ve…missed you so.”“Come now,” she said, pulling back, giving him a wink and the slightest of smirks.  Her grey eyebrows lifted coyly.  “You saw us just this autumn.  We’re not so far away, though you could stand to visit more!”“Don’t be so precious, Astarion,” one of his siblings goaded from behind them, and the youngest scowled, ignoring the voice.  “Perhaps you’re right,” he said instead to his mother, who steered him toward the middle of the ballroom.  “It just…feels like longer.”“It always does, and will, until you return home for good as I’ve asked.”  They were near the tree; what was she standing, posing for?  He mimicked her stance unintentionally, and his head canted toward the beautiful elf.  As if to explain, she gestured.  “You know every politician and reporter in Baldur’s Gate will be at this ball.  Always treating these affairs as if they’re political maneuvers.”He inhaled sharply, more memories flooding into his mind as if they were being poured, fresh, as from a mug.  His family had been here for decades.  Hadn’t they?“And I know you are a guest, but,” she patted his hand with her own.  He squeezed hers in response, his gaze never leaving his mother’s.  “I expect you to shake a few hands, my love.  It’s the least you can do as a magister.”“A magister.”“Astarion, are you feeling alright?”  Despite the very obvious fact that an elf didn’t suffer human fevers, she still mimicked the very human gesture of putting her palm to his forehead.  The beautiful woman frowned, and he desperately stared at her face, wanting to remember every detail, forever.  She was so lovely.  So kind.  “You are a bit warm.  Perhaps you need a rest?”A bit warm!  He beamed, though he didn’t know why.  Astarion clasped his mother’s hand again and kissed it.  One of his sisters passed by, carrying a plate of something, and she scoffed at him.  “What, you’re letting him get out of this social nightmare without even nagging him about his engagement?”Her eyes lit up; his widened in confusion.  His what now.“Oh, darling, we MUST talk about it, even if it’s not tonight.  You’re here for a whole tenday, yes?  We need to plan for the wedding, of course, but also discuss with your father, your plans…you’ll move home, won’t you? We’ve plenty of bedrooms here–”“Whyyyyy in the nine hells would I need plenty of bedrooms!”  His ears were reddening, he could feel it.  Why was that feeling so foreign to him?She looked taken aback.  Astarion’s sister laughed, an evil cackle, as she tiptoed away, happy for the chaos she’d caused.  She threw a mischievous look over her shoulder, and he frowned, turning back toward the uncannily beautiful elf.  His mother seemed genuinely confused why he asked.“Well, for the children, of course!”He sputtered, but only managed, “MOTHER!”As the new carriage, and more guests, filtered in from across the large room, a voice sounded on the steps nearest their alcove. It was a deep voice with a strangely comforting resonance, a voice he’d heard….somewhere.  “I see she’s giving you the children talk already,” the other, lanky elf said as he sauntered in, looking deeply uncomfortable in his decidedly understated plainclothes.  His normally flat-affect was heightened somewhat; his eyebrows lifted at the sight of Astarion, and his lips settled into what was, decidedly, a smirk.  Albeit a very small one that only the most well-trained eyes could see.Astarion’s shock at seeing his mother doubled as he looked at the elf.  White hair, green eyes.  But no markings.  What markings?  The other lifted a dark eyebrow, as curious at Astarion’s staring as everyone else had been.  The handsome, dark-skinned elf snorted as his eyes cut toward his to-be mother-in-law.“Don’t worry, I told her about logistics, she won’t listen.”  Eirianwen tutted, and actually poked the tall elf in the arm playfully.  She recognized his words as a tease, even though Astarion was still in the processing stage of seeing Fenris.  Here.  Different.  How?  He couldn’t remember.  Why couldn’t he remember things?“I’m aware of the…the…logistics, dear!” his mother hissed in faux-annoyance, but her smile gave her thoughts away completely.  “You’ll be able to adopt, or look for surrogacy, or–”“MOTHER!” Astarion was utterly horrified; his eyes nearly shot out of his head at this, and his entire face turned red.  Somewhere nearby, his sister laughed, and thankfully the familiar visage of Wyll’s father, the Grand Duke, moved toward the trio.  Duke Ravengard had no eyes for Astarion, only his mother, as he moved forward in a bow and a greeting of admiration.  She gave her son one more pointed smile before turning toward him, ever the gracious hostess.  His learned manners all left him; Astarion’s shoulders sagged as he stared again at Fenris, in complete awe.  What was the other elf doing here?  Why couldn’t Astarion remember things?  This was supposed to be a lovely night.  He’d prepared for this party for weeks–they all had.  There would be gifts, and feasting and drinking and dancing.  As if on a whim the shorter elf reached up and pulled away the black collar of the simple shirt; Fenris allowed this, but drew back slightly.  Astarion remembered biting the other’s neck…he had, hadn’t he?  He remembered the sting of lyrium blood on his own tongue.  Remembered the scar that landed across the lyrium tattoo.  But there were no neck piercings to be found…in fact, there was no lyrium tattoo down the elf’s neck.  Something was wrong, wasn’t it?Fenris’s green eyes were warm, curious.  He put a steadying arm on Astarion’s elbow.  “Are you all right, Astarion?”At his name the elf sharply gazed upward; he was remembering other things.  The tattoos.  He would remember those anywhere.  He could recall their blue hue, shining on them both in the dark.  Fenris, standing in the rain, drenched in blood.  Relishing the moment while the droplets stung Astarion’s flesh.  He’d bared his teeth.  His fangs.  He’d been afraid to do it in the warrior’s presence.  Astarion’s tongue shot toward his fang and found only a tooth; he peered earnestly at the other elf.  Fenris wouldn’t lie to him.  Fenris couldn’t.  But how could he ask, how could he know what the truth was?“I need you to tell me,” he began curtly.  “What color are my eyes?”“Your eyes?”  Fenris seemed bemused, but he nodded once, his satin voice smooth as always, as his forest-green eyes flickered across the rogue’s face.  “Grey.”“Fenris.”Green eyes continued to stare, perplexed, but patient.  “You’re not real.  This isn’t real, is it.”The visage was supposed to lie, to comfort him. Console him.  Do the bidding of the thing conjuring this scene.  But it didn’t.  Even here, in his mind, Fenris couldn’t lie.  Wouldn’t lie.  He stared, perhaps with a strange sorrow, at the curly-haired elf.  It returned to Astarion then.  The truth.  Hearing the warrior’s voice had given his memories willpower, as if a surge of truth propelled into his mind.  A deep anger grew within him.  This wasn’t his family’s palace.  It was Cazador’s.  He turned, rounding on the demon as the place fell away around him.  Gone was the warm crackle of the fire and the hum of pleased guests.  Gone was his mother, gone were his siblings, his companions.  Gone was Fenris’s touch on his arm.  The demon stared at him as if put out, annoyed.  It had been interrupted in its work by Wyll and Halsin’s arrival.  Astarion’s face was in a snarl; he didn’t know it, but tears cascaded down his cheeks.  “How dare you, how…how…cruel…” he spat, his hands shaking.  He needed to find his weapons.  “Cruel!”  It sounded offended.  “Have you not spoken to every God and Goddess and heard nothing?  Have you not ached for a heaven of your very own?  Have you not longed for paradise, even a sliver of it?  I offer it to you and you still question. Willful young elf.”He found the hilt of his dagger just as it fell into one of the nearby pools of black sludge.  Astarion’s vision was so blurred by his tears that he didn’t register what was happening around him, didn’t see his freed friends rushing across the bleak swamp of despair toward him.  “I’ve seen enough,” he snapped, the hurt in his voice clear as he flourished the blade.  —--------Wyll was just as concerned as the others when the blowback of the thing’s last-resort attack knocked everyone but Astarion off their feet; instead of being hit with the force, the elf was suspended; hung in the air by a bolt of lightning; Wyll thrust a hand out, drawing on his own power to pull the vampire toward him.  Even though Astarion suffered no damage from electricity, who knew what this thing’s plan was for him?In hasty, chopped sentences the group had explained their arrival, and the demon’s subsequent fascination with Astarion and his soul, to the others.  This alarmed Wyll even more than it did some of the other party, as he’d wrestled personally with his own soul against a demon.  So now he fought, hard, to wrench Astarion from its grasp.  The pull worked; Astarion flew back to topple into the heap of the rest of the group, and with one last shriek, the eldritch horror vaporized, flinging black, slimy tar and blood across the group.  The cavern was still dark, but the gloom it carried lifted, and the weary fighters all lay in their spots, catching their breath.  Well, except Karlach, who was already on her feet and whooping about what a fight it had been.  Halsin warned, “I sense that the creature was not downed…it merely grew weak and departed.  We should find sunlight with haste.”Wyll was slower to untangle than the druid; Astarion had fallen almost on top of him, and now he struggled to stand and hold up the shorter vampire.  “Are you all right?”“I…I think so.  Gods what a headache,” Astarion grumbled, and he uncharacteristically tossed his daggers to the muddy ground in favor of sitting, pressing his palms into his temples, his head shaking to and fro as if he could remove cobwebs from it.It was surprisingly Lae’Zael who spoke next, even more surprisingly, with a soft voice of concern.  “Is your…mind, intact as well?  Do you recall the demon’s torturings?”“Its what? My what?”  Astarion squinted, looking paler than usual.  “I know it….did something to me, to hurt me.  I can’t recall what it did or said.  It wanted something from me, didn’t it?”  The rogue frowned deeply when he saw how alarmed the others looked.  “What? Why are you staring at me like that?  What did the damned thing want?”Gale tried, after exchanging a very troubled look with Shadowheart.  “Do you….remember anything of what it may have told you?  You said earlier it showed you…erm, well.  Memories.”“Memories? Of what?”His indignation was growing, Wyll could tell.  The vampire’s shoulders were moving back, he was inhaling a large breath.  He was about to get angry and may everyone be out of his warpath.  Shadowheart’s voice was just as smooth, calm, and worried as the other’s.  “We don’t know, Astarion…it only showed them to you.”Crimson eyes glanced suspiciously at the too-quiet crowd.  “Tricks, then?  Some…demon lure?  Lies, all of it, I assume?”When no one spoke, Wyll felt compelled to.  He hadn’t been present for any of this, but his unease at the discontent was strong.  His tone was patient, soothing.  “I’m sure that’s what it was, Astarion.”    written by heedless moth, template by creativian

EZRA MOONWHO ARE YOU REALLY? All the best friends I've ever had have been drowned by the dust.  You have crept in the tree of an old oak village I once knew before I was bornAway I have found a way to the one I've felt for years The warriors were content to beat their brains against the charm-turned-prison; this thing, this…demon?--had turned his magic against him, and to be frank, Gale couldn’t concentrate on counteracting it as long as Astarion was outside of the orb, being held in place by the thing’s lightning spell.  Magic coursed up from the sticky, tar-covered ground and surged through the vampire.  Karlach seemed to make the most progress against their orb, but just as her feet slid forward, they moved back and she cursed when her own heat moved in a wave against her.  They were trapped–at least for the moment, but the wizard felt his heart leap with hope anyway when the lightning finally dissipated.  Astarion stumbled to the ground, groaning as he fought to keep from going to his knees.The bastard still had strength to fight.  But just as Gale, and in front of him, Minsc, moved to celebrate, they saw the horror-stricken look on the white-haired elf’s face.  “Astarion! Focus! Don’t let it–whatever it did in your head! Shadowheart, can you cast gui–”“Already trying,” she said sternly, amid the chaos of the prison bubble, where their own magic stirred within, unable to leave its confines.  Karlach shouted, drowning out both spellcasters.  “ASTARION! ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?”So to the point, that one.  Gale gripped his staff unnaturally firmly as he awaited the elf’s answer.  Astarion’s red eyes were round, frightened, and they glinted against the pale purple shimmer of magic as he surveyed the gap between his friends, and the demon that finally released him.  It was only moments being in the thrall of the thing, but the group had no way of knowing just how long those moments felt. Or how painful they were.  “I…I saw…my memories,” he said in a faint voice, regarding the creature with a new kind of fear.  Terror, really.  Gale cursed inwardly; that could be very bad.  Aloud, he voiced in what he hoped was a helpful tone, “Don’t believe its visions–it can make anything seem true!”The demon-thing chuckled, a warbled noise that almost sounded birdlike.  Astarion rose to his full height, finally, out of breath.  His hair and eyes were both wild as he turned toward the group.  “No, no–it was real.  It was my real memories.  I had no idea…I…”“BE CAREFUL!” Karlach advised ever so loudly, as she picked up her axe again.  In a lower tone, she growled, “I’m going to burst this goddamn bubble with pure anger, DAMMIT ALL!!”“Do us all the favor, please,” Lae’Zel hissed.  But as the warriors focused on the magic again, Gale’s eyes were only on the elf beyond.  The demon, in its tattered robes, had begun floating across the blackness toward Astarion, a seemingly hungry look in what Gale supposed were its beady, hate-filled eyes.It had said something earlier.  Something not good.  Gale struggled to understand, to piece together meanings.  It wanted Astarion’s soul. A soul the vampire was certain he’d never had.  Several in the group had their doubts about this, and though they conversed quietly when he wasn’t around, no one quite had the heart or nerve to bring it up to the rogue officially.  Besides, it was just a theory, based on several observations.  It held no water.Well, until NOW, with a bloody demon vocalizing its want for the supposedly-existing-soul.  Of course Astarion didn’t just have any regular soul, either, apparently.  Gale was cursing himself for not knowing more of Astarion’s background, and more of Elven souls, when he heard a sound from nearby.  A voice.  No, two voices.  Plus a dog barking, loudly.  Ah, Gods, had someone found them?  He recognized the bark as Scratch’s.  Then the first voice.  Halsin’s.  Wyll answered, then bellowed down the cavernous hole.  Good grief, were they actually close to civilization?  Maybe this nightmare would end soon.  Hopefully, with Astarion in one piece.—--------------------He didn’t even see the creature move to consume him again.  It was simply there, rapidly in his space, the roar of his companions fading to nothing in Astarion’s ears.  He was standing, at least–he thought he was–and he tried very hard to look away from the twinkling, crustacean-like eyestalks that peered from the darkness toward him.Its voice was a resonant claw with a painful grasp, a murky river that reflected nothing on its surface.  I HAVE SO MUCH TO OFFER YOU.  “I doubt that,” Astarion sneered aloud, not knowing whether or not he’d imagined the booming words.  They reverberated still, in his head, and he felt something–a tentacle? A claw?--tighten around his neck.  He gasped and clawed at his throat, but there was nothing there.“Stop this,” he hissed, as if the most powerful enemy they’d ever faced was nothing but an annoying child; again, his feet rose from the floor, again he was caught in its web.  It was thinking, he realized….it contemplated, it mused on what to do with him.  He was struggling for air.  But he didn’t need it–it was a comfort, though one he badly wanted.  The rogue had lost his weapons…where had they gone?“I am no mage,” it continued to hiss, “I have an army at my command.  All you must do is sacrifice this hell you live, for a heaven.  A happier spot.  Then your troubles will fade, and I gain a new conduit of power to separate, to make a realm.  A new home.  As your people did.”  This last part was a tease–it had learned something from him, and was now teasing him about it.  Astarion fought, struggling even now to recall the newly uncovered memories.  His mind felt like a bruised apple; hardy at one point, but softening with each blow, and soon destined to become a tasty, if unappetizing looking, treat for someone else.  “I can’t,” he choked, sagging against the sensation finally.  His feet kicked no more; he was done.  Somewhere, Gale was yelling, but Astarion couldn’t make out the words.  He didn’t even know what it was he ‘couldn’t’ do.  Was he turning down the creature’s offer?  Or saying he could no longer listen?  He didn’t know.  His eyes were closed; this felt so similar to many nights caught in Cazador’s cruel web of torture.  He could simply float away, and come back later.  If his body was able to come back later.Astarion felt as if he were drifting into a pleasant sleep, and the last thing he heard was the creature smugly offering, “I have learned you, elf….now, let me show you a taste.  Of what can be yours.”Don’t you ache for silence, for stillness?For the love you’ve never had?It was a woman’s voice…kind.Don’t you wish to go home?Home? Where was home? What was home?“You cannot tempt me,” Astarion panted, and he was surprised to hear how small his voice was.  He needed to call, for help.  From someone.  Who?Please, Astarion.  Come home.  Then it was all darkness and silence.—----------------Astarion opened his eyes, startled.  He felt a great rush of wind at his back, and someone ran past him, cursing in an unfamiliar language.  Who was that?  An elf, with white hair.  She wore an emerald, velvet dress.  His sister.  What was her name again?“You could at least close the door for yourself!  That snowstorm is frightful! Don’t even see how you made it here at all.”“His arms are full, give the poor man a break!”  The sharp voice of the wizard was a surprise to Astarion.  He turned, realizing two things at once–firstly, several others had entered with him, one being Gale–and two, everyone in the group carried heavy parcels.  Wrapped.Presents.  For what?  They were all bundled up in winter finery, too, even Karlach.  Astarion stared at his friend, realizing that she wasn’t….well…smoldering.  The telltale ticking of her infernal engine, which he heard anytime he listened, was gone.  She didn’t have the engine.  She had…he listened….a heartbeat!  Even more strangely, she was in a regal black gown, with a black fur coat.  She looked less like a warrior and more like a dark queen, more radiant than anything on the Material Plane.  Despite his confusion, Astarion’s heart soared, and Karlach moved past him, her arms full of boxes, and she scooped up his armful as she passed by.  Her eyebrow arched.  “What are you looking at me like that for?”“I….”“It’s the dress, idn’t it? I know, I can already feel the chafi–”“He’s just captivated by your beauty,” Gale said easily, clapping Astarion on the shoulder as he moved past.  The wizard spun, pointing in a vaguely upstairs direction.  “Am I to assume we’re rooming in the same spot as last season?  Third floor, west corridor?” As if to explain his ask, he nodded, “I know I rode in with you all, but I had a farther journey!”“You took a portal,” Karlach snorted.  The group that spilled into the large main hall were in a huge, warmly lit manor that seemed all-too-familiar to Astarion.  From where?  Marble floors.  Warm, buttery candlelight, reflected by magic and made brighter.  A crackling hearth in the ballroom, and a large white tree at the head of the magnificent entry room, decorated in baubles for the winter holiday.  This was Baldur’s Gate, he remembered.  This palace belonged to…it was…whose was it?  He fought, wrestling with the lack of memory as Gale continued, “Come, Tara!”The tressym leapt from behind Astarion, who finally turned to look behind him where they’d entered.  His sister had shut the door, but he doubled back to stare out one of the frosted windows.  After wiping his palm across the ice, Astarion nearly jumped; the ice bit his fingers with an unfamiliar sting of cold.  He stared at peach-toned digits.  Fingers, not claws. He turned his hand over.  Was he….alive?Eyes widened dramatically, and he peered out the glass at what little he could see.  A large carriage was pulling away from the snow-covered entrance, and behind it were more, waiting for their turn to drop off their cargo.  A party, he recalled, as if someone slipped him the memory on a note.  A party for the holiday.  Midwinter.  He had another memory resurface with this; he recalled standing on a spire, balancing, practicing ballroom dance moves.  Was that how he’d learned?  Why had he been outside in the cold?  Astarion’s palms moved down his own jacket front.  It was luxurious.  Silk and embroidery.  Silver and blue.  Just as he peered into the window glass, seeking his own reflection, another hearty voice called out.  “There you are!  Wondered if I was going to have to send in an ice dragon to find you in this.”  It was a warm, matronly tone; he spun on his heel, nearly tripping toward the beloved woman.  “Kaylessa!”And then it all flooded back to him.  His home, in the Star Elf cloister.  His parents, his siblings, his upbringing.  The other realm, the before.  Kaylessa beamed as if pleased at his sudden inrush of memories; she brought her adopted son into a crushingly-tight hug, which he heartily returned, burying his nose onto her shoulder and inhaling deeply.  Rosemary.  Firelight.  She was his family.  He remembered.  Gods, it was good to be home.  In his family’s palace.  Of course.  They’d all come here together once their realm was beyond repair–once it had been overrun with intruders.  “I missed you too, Little Star,” she said with a heavy-handed pat on his back; he smirked.  Just as she’d done when he was little.  Now he was a bit more sturdy, but she still steered him farther into the ballroom, moving toward an adjacent sitting area near a fireplace.  It seemed many more partygoers congregated here, but Astarion looked around at the wider scene.  Karlach was already moving the mountainous pile of presents toward the white tree at the front of the room.  They toppled and she laughed, eagerly scooping them back up and trying to make the mountain as presentable as the pristinely-decorated tree.  Gale, true to form, was heading for his bedroom first, despite being lavishly dressed; he was peppy, chatting with Tara as he ascended the staircase.   Astarion’s other companions were here–they greeted each other as a smile wound its way onto the elf’s lips.  Another carriage was waiting to disembark; his siblings bickered about standing behind the massive door to shut it yet again, or call a servant. He intended to move back toward them; he could handle the door.  He was already overwhelmed with everything; perhaps being a doorman would afford him a break–“And have Nessa go talk to the chefs and servers, we’re going to need more–Astarion!”  The voice was musical, light; his head snapped back to the sitting area, where she waltzed, weaving between the plush sofas in an extravagantly beautiful white silk dress.  He knew her.  He’d seen her.  His whole life, hadn’t he?“More Astarion, indeed,” Kaylessa tutted, patting his back again before she departed with a smile.  “Mother,” he said in a very small voice, and Astarion let her approach him.  Her hug was the opposite of his other mother’s; the Star Elf was lithe, dainty, chill to the touch, she smelled of twilight and wood smoke.  Her white curls were down, instead of in their usual braid.  And as a sign of her royal lineage, she wore a dainty circlet on her head.  “My little star,” she cooed, and their embrace was fragile, sweet.  Why did he feel like bursting into tears?  As if to explain his tremble, Astarion said with an inhale, “I’ve…missed you so.”“Come now,” she said, pulling back, giving him a wink and the slightest of smirks.  Her grey eyebrows lifted coyly.  “You saw us just this autumn.  We’re not so far away, though you could stand to visit more!”“Don’t be so precious, Astarion,” one of his siblings goaded from behind them, and the youngest scowled, ignoring the voice.  “Perhaps you’re right,” he said instead to his mother, who steered him toward the middle of the ballroom.  “It just…feels like longer.”“It always does, and will, until you return home for good as I’ve asked.”  They were near the tree; what was she standing, posing for?  He mimicked her stance unintentionally, and his head canted toward the beautiful elf.  As if to explain, she gestured.  “You know every politician and reporter in Baldur’s Gate will be at this ball.  Always treating these affairs as if they’re political maneuvers.”He inhaled sharply, more memories flooding into his mind as if they were being poured, fresh, as from a mug.  His family had been here for decades.  Hadn’t they?“And I know you are a guest, but,” she patted his hand with her own.  He squeezed hers in response, his gaze never leaving his mother’s.  “I expect you to shake a few hands, my love.  It’s the least you can do as a magister.”“A magister.”“Astarion, are you feeling alright?”  Despite the very obvious fact that an elf didn’t suffer human fevers, she still mimicked the very human gesture of putting her palm to his forehead.  The beautiful woman frowned, and he desperately stared at her face, wanting to remember every detail, forever.  She was so lovely.  So kind.  “You are a bit warm.  Perhaps you need a rest?”A bit warm!  He beamed, though he didn’t know why.  Astarion clasped his mother’s hand again and kissed it.  One of his sisters passed by, carrying a plate of something, and she scoffed at him.  “What, you’re letting him get out of this social nightmare without even nagging him about his engagement?”Her eyes lit up; his widened in confusion.  His what now.“Oh, darling, we MUST talk about it, even if it’s not tonight.  You’re here for a whole tenday, yes?  We need to plan for the wedding, of course, but also discuss with your father, your plans…you’ll move home, won’t you? We’ve plenty of bedrooms here–”“Whyyyyy in the nine hells would I need plenty of bedrooms!”  His ears were reddening, he could feel it.  Why was that feeling so foreign to him?She looked taken aback.  Astarion’s sister laughed, an evil cackle, as she tiptoed away, happy for the chaos she’d caused.  She threw a mischievous look over her shoulder, and he frowned, turning back toward the uncannily beautiful elf.  His mother seemed genuinely confused why he asked.“Well, for the children, of course!”He sputtered, but only managed, “MOTHER!”As the new carriage, and more guests, filtered in from across the large room, a voice sounded on the steps nearest their alcove. It was a deep voice with a strangely comforting resonance, a voice he’d heard….somewhere.  “I see she’s giving you the children talk already,” the other, lanky elf said as he sauntered in, looking deeply uncomfortable in his decidedly understated plainclothes.  His normally flat-affect was heightened somewhat; his eyebrows lifted at the sight of Astarion, and his lips settled into what was, decidedly, a smirk.  Albeit a very small one that only the most well-trained eyes could see.Astarion’s shock at seeing his mother doubled as he looked at the elf.  White hair, green eyes.  But no markings.  What markings?  The other lifted a dark eyebrow, as curious at Astarion’s staring as everyone else had been.  The handsome, dark-skinned elf snorted as his eyes cut toward his to-be mother-in-law.“Don’t worry, I told her about logistics, she won’t listen.”  Eirianwen tutted, and actually poked the tall elf in the arm playfully.  She recognized his words as a tease, even though Astarion was still in the processing stage of seeing Fenris.  Here.  Different.  How?  He couldn’t remember.  Why couldn’t he remember things?“I’m aware of the…the…logistics, dear!” his mother hissed in faux-annoyance, but her smile gave her thoughts away completely.  “You’ll be able to adopt, or look for surrogacy, or–”“MOTHER!” Astarion was utterly horrified; his eyes nearly shot out of his head at this, and his entire face turned red.  Somewhere nearby, his sister laughed, and thankfully the familiar visage of Wyll’s father, the Grand Duke, moved toward the trio.  Duke Ravengard had no eyes for Astarion, only his mother, as he moved forward in a bow and a greeting of admiration.  She gave her son one more pointed smile before turning toward him, ever the gracious hostess.  His learned manners all left him; Astarion’s shoulders sagged as he stared again at Fenris, in complete awe.  What was the other elf doing here?  Why couldn’t Astarion remember things?  This was supposed to be a lovely night.  He’d prepared for this party for weeks–they all had.  There would be gifts, and feasting and drinking and dancing.  As if on a whim the shorter elf reached up and pulled away the black collar of the simple shirt; Fenris allowed this, but drew back slightly.  Astarion remembered biting the other’s neck…he had, hadn’t he?  He remembered the sting of lyrium blood on his own tongue.  Remembered the scar that landed across the lyrium tattoo.  But there were no neck piercings to be found…in fact, there was no lyrium tattoo down the elf’s neck.  Something was wrong, wasn’t it?Fenris’s green eyes were warm, curious.  He put a steadying arm on Astarion’s elbow.  “Are you all right, Astarion?”At his name the elf sharply gazed upward; he was remembering other things.  The tattoos.  He would remember those anywhere.  He could recall their blue hue, shining on them both in the dark.  Fenris, standing in the rain, drenched in blood.  Relishing the moment while the droplets stung Astarion’s flesh.  He’d bared his teeth.  His fangs.  He’d been afraid to do it in the warrior’s presence.  Astarion’s tongue shot toward his fang and found only a tooth; he peered earnestly at the other elf.  Fenris wouldn’t lie to him.  Fenris couldn’t.  But how could he ask, how could he know what the truth was?“I need you to tell me,” he began curtly.  “What color are my eyes?”“Your eyes?”  Fenris seemed bemused, but he nodded once, his satin voice smooth as always, as his forest-green eyes flickered across the rogue’s face.  “Grey.”“Fenris.”Green eyes continued to stare, perplexed, but patient.  “You’re not real.  This isn’t real, is it.”The visage was supposed to lie, to comfort him. Console him.  Do the bidding of the thing conjuring this scene.  But it didn’t.  Even here, in his mind, Fenris couldn’t lie.  Wouldn’t lie.  He stared, perhaps with a strange sorrow, at the curly-haired elf.  It returned to Astarion then.  The truth.  Hearing the warrior’s voice had given his memories willpower, as if a surge of truth propelled into his mind.  A deep anger grew within him.  This wasn’t his family’s palace.  It was Cazador’s.  He turned, rounding on the demon as the place fell away around him.  Gone was the warm crackle of the fire and the hum of pleased guests.  Gone was his mother, gone were his siblings, his companions.  Gone was Fenris’s touch on his arm.  The demon stared at him as if put out, annoyed.  It had been interrupted in its work by Wyll and Halsin’s arrival.  Astarion’s face was in a snarl; he didn’t know it, but tears cascaded down his cheeks.  “How dare you, how…how…cruel…” he spat, his hands shaking.  He needed to find his weapons.  “Cruel!”  It sounded offended.  “Have you not spoken to every God and Goddess and heard nothing?  Have you not ached for a heaven of your very own?  Have you not longed for paradise, even a sliver of it?  I offer it to you and you still question. Willful young elf.”He found the hilt of his dagger just as it fell into one of the nearby pools of black sludge.  Astarion’s vision was so blurred by his tears that he didn’t register what was happening around him, didn’t see his freed friends rushing across the bleak swamp of despair toward him.  “I’ve seen enough,” he snapped, the hurt in his voice clear as he flourished the blade.  —--------Wyll was just as concerned as the others when the blowback of the thing’s last-resort attack knocked everyone but Astarion off their feet; instead of being hit with the force, the elf was suspended; hung in the air by a bolt of lightning; Wyll thrust a hand out, drawing on his own power to pull the vampire toward him.  Even though Astarion suffered no damage from electricity, who knew what this thing’s plan was for him?In hasty, chopped sentences the group had explained their arrival, and the demon’s subsequent fascination with Astarion and his soul, to the others.  This alarmed Wyll even more than it did some of the other party, as he’d wrestled personally with his own soul against a demon.  So now he fought, hard, to wrench Astarion from its grasp.  The pull worked; Astarion flew back to topple into the heap of the rest of the group, and with one last shriek, the eldritch horror vaporized, flinging black, slimy tar and blood across the group.  The cavern was still dark, but the gloom it carried lifted, and the weary fighters all lay in their spots, catching their breath.  Well, except Karlach, who was already on her feet and whooping about what a fight it had been.  Halsin warned, “I sense that the creature was not downed…it merely grew weak and departed.  We should find sunlight with haste.”Wyll was slower to untangle than the druid; Astarion had fallen almost on top of him, and now he struggled to stand and hold up the shorter vampire.  “Are you all right?”“I…I think so.  Gods what a headache,” Astarion grumbled, and he uncharacteristically tossed his daggers to the muddy ground in favor of sitting, pressing his palms into his temples, his head shaking to and fro as if he could remove cobwebs from it.It was surprisingly Lae’Zael who spoke next, even more surprisingly, with a soft voice of concern.  “Is your…mind, intact as well?  Do you recall the demon’s torturings?”“Its what? My what?”  Astarion squinted, looking paler than usual.  “I know it….did something to me, to hurt me.  I can’t recall what it did or said.  It wanted something from me, didn’t it?”  The rogue frowned deeply when he saw how alarmed the others looked.  “What? Why are you staring at me like that?  What did the damned thing want?”Gale tried, after exchanging a very troubled look with Shadowheart.  “Do you….remember anything of what it may have told you?  You said earlier it showed you…erm, well.  Memories.”“Memories? Of what?”His indignation was growing, Wyll could tell.  The vampire’s shoulders were moving back, he was inhaling a large breath.  He was about to get angry and may everyone be out of his warpath.  Shadowheart’s voice was just as smooth, calm, and worried as the other’s.  “We don’t know, Astarion…it only showed them to you.”Crimson eyes glanced suspiciously at the too-quiet crowd.  “Tricks, then?  Some…demon lure?  Lies, all of it, I assume?”When no one spoke, Wyll felt compelled to.  He hadn’t been present for any of this, but his unease at the discontent was strong.  His tone was patient, soothing.  “I’m sure that’s what it was, Astarion.”    written by heedless moth, template by creativian

#deathly {background-color: #183048; width: 400PX; margin: auto; padding: 15PX; border: solid 5PX #FFF; box-shadow: 1PX 1PX 3PX #0F0F0F;)} #dtitle {font-family: serif-sans; color: #FFF; text-align: center; font-size: 35PX; text-transform: uppercase; font-weight: bold; padding: 4PX;} #dcontent {font-family: serif-sans; background-color: #FFF; opacity: 0.7; margin: 10PX; padding: 10PX; font-size: 13PX; line-height: 14PX; box-shadow: 1PX 1PX 5PX #000; text-align: justify;} on discussions (This is taken from my 'vampire diaries' series which is a rambling bulletin for the old Myspace rpers here who remember when we used to just ramble in bulletins, but this one actually has an important update in it.) hello my beautiful treasures.  I've realized something just this morning and I had to put it out there, because it's going to affect my writing.  my process? my something.So, I mention all the time that I need plotting and can't do rp without it.  I have never really sat on this and thought about it as it relates to my writing in general other than to sayyyy (not patting my own back but)I am a very prolific solo writer and I have a stupid amount of solo writing where my only boundary is time and life.  And yet witih 99% of people, even people I truly enjoy, co-writing is a bit of a nightmare for me. Why do I do this to myself? I don't know.  I have found some amazing, incredible people through writing collaboratively, and have had some wonderful stories that I could not have pioneered on my own.But I've noticed something about myself.  Because I've written for years it's very easy for me to get into a flow state when writing (you know, the 'in the zone' magic spot) it happens almost immediately as long as I know what I'm writing.  And that's the hangup.  A lot of RP is like little short mini-attention-span stuff, and "let's figure it out as we go" and my brain does *not* like that at all.  And worse, it prevents the flow state.So I find myself sitting here wondering why someone who has 150 chapters from last year alone, let alone the 30 or so on a fanfic from this year, can't figure out a short few paragraph reply on a low-risk storyline.  Low-risk as in, I know and like the author, they know and like me, things should jive.And it's because the lack of excitement, the lack of creativity sitting in front of me, has me incapable of going into my flow state.  This is actually why I don't like most TV or movies--I don't know what's happening and I can't predict it and it feels like a waste of creative energy when I'm sitting along wondering what is happening.  Some shows/movies obviously earn my trust but they are few and far between.I love to write.  But I absolutely require novel-writing-level planning beforehand.  I was fighting this instinct when I started writing Astarion, and a lot of you have heard me say "I'm trying to get better at banter" along with "I like to discuss but I'll try to wing it."Today I must admit that winging it doesn't work for me.  I am what I am.  I require us to figure out a plot/a problem, and perhaps a few of them, as we start to write.  I want to know how, in the future, our characters will get along or not get along. I need to know these things to write in my flow state, so that I'm not pausing, stopping, asking questions, getting lost, blahblahblah.  When I sit down to write it's a beautiful thing if all of the stars align with my planning.If I try to lower or change my focus, this gets messy.  I have ADHD, and my one strength is my hyperfocus.  If I'm distracted from our story, I'm going to be SO F***ING DISTRACTED.  And nobody wants that.  I can no longer operate on the level that others do--I'm amazed by you, I don't know how you do it, but I am just a one-track-mind with writing and I have my ways. I am aware this makes me high maintenance.  I mean, I guess it fits the muse.If you can handle this level of obnoxiousness please do reach out.  If we have a story that I am replying to very, very slowly *cough, lillianna, cough, rose* please know that more discussions will warrant us a better story and I am always always always ALLLLLLLLLLLWAYYYYYYSdown to discuss more and more and more.  If you're reading this and you're like "wow, this guy sounds awful" please feel free to delete without any guilt at all.  We're not all going to be each others' cups of tea.  If you hate discussions and hate the idea of talking ooc and building an entire novel-length saga of plots and villains and NPCs, then that's okay too. I still love you and wish you the best.THATS ALL I GOT--HEY, IT'S THURSDAY! LOVE YOU BYE ✖

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Let's run away together September 25th 1980late afternoonKaitlyn had been looking forward to this day off for nearly a week now. It seriously wasn’t for the job…hell, she loved working at the Black Cat, but she needed a break every so often. And today would be a perfect day to head to the park. That was until she heard the newscaster break in. At first she didn’t think much of it, but once she heard the name Led Zeppelin, she froze and turned the radio up. She and Robert had been seeing each other since June of the past year.“John Bonham of Led Zeppelin found dead this morning, cause still undetermined.”Kaitlyn sighed and dropped her purse onto the chair, deciding it would be better to wait for Robert to call. From what she had understood from a conversation she and Robert had had a few days prior, they were to begin a tour in Canada, since they had not toured since 1977.No sooner had she walked into the kitchen to grab a bag of chips, the phone started ringing. She shuffled the bag into one arm and picked the receiver off the wall. “Hello?”“Katie, are you sitting down?” Robert’s voice could be heard on the other end of the line.“I heard, Robert. Apparently the media has already picked up the news. Where are you?” She placed the bag down on the table and pulled out a chair and sat facing the phone. Once she’d found that Robert had flown down to Los Angeles from Canada, and was now at a payphone, she breathed a sigh of relief. “Robert, why don’t you come over and we can talk. Those payphones run out after a while. Plus it’ll be safer, and you won’t be seen and get mobbed.”“Give me half an hour, babe. I’ll be there soon.” Robert replied then hung up the phone, pulled over a plate and got a handful of chips, but honestly being as concerned for Robert and the rest of the band. It seemed she stared at the chips for a good half hour when she heard a knock from the door. She glanced at the door, but didn’t want to appear overeager, but she knew Robert was going to need support, and she needed to be there for him. Taking a deep breath, she stood from the chair and crossed the room to the door and opened it. Before she knew it, Robert was in her arms. Instinctively and protectively, she wrapped her arms around him. She didn’t say anything, but she wasn’t about to push him for answers. Not until he was ready.“Four quadruple screwdrivers, Katie. And he just kept drinking. After rehearsals, we put him to bed, and he must have died during the night at some point.”She lightly trailed her fingertips along his spine, and exhaled slowly and closed her eyes. Alcohol poisoning. There were just no two ways about it, and being a bartender she’d seen far too many who’d done just that…even having cut people off when they seemed to be a few sheets to the wind. “What about the band, Robert?”He was silent for a moment, then pulled back just enough to look at her without breaking the embrace, and looked into her eyes. He shook his head. “Zeppelin died with Bonham, Katie. That’s over.”She searched his eyes and reached up to brush a stray lock of hair behind his ear that had fallen into his face. “I’m so sorry, baby.” she whispered softly and compassionately. Honestly, she didn’t know what else to say.“In about two or three days they’ll fly him back to England for a private service with only close friends and family. They want me to go over there with him, but since my son, Katie…I don’t think I can do this alone.”Kaitlyn thought for a moment. “I would go, Robert, but I have a job here, plus the process to procure a passport would take too long. I don’t think there’s enough time to go through the process, even though money is not an issue…”He silenced her by placing two fingers on her lips. “Just having you here is enough Kaitlyn. Don’t worry about that. Ultimately it’s my decision to go or not. They know how I am at funerals. They’ll understand if I don’t go.”. CREDIT: WU SHIFU