So small recap of my rl self My name is Joshua Torres ill be 31 in September. I plan to be going to school to be a theater major wether it be in filming or acting im not sure yet. I love videogames and orcestra music. Right now im living with my dad because I let people use me and abuse my trust something I have a problem with alot. The people who broke my trust used my credit card and used it to its max and I owe over 6000 dollars. As of today ive gotten it down to 4000 but I got a long ways to go. I was staying with my dad because he has had some medical problems and I had to stay to help keep him in line. But recently the Doctors say I dont need to be his keeper since he will have around the clock help that will come to him from now on. So in a few months ill be moving in with my mother and grandma to take care of my godson who doesnt have a father in his life because my brother left him at birth. The mother is a drug addict and is losing custody of him. Now on to the second thing everyone ask why do I have so many female friends and why no male friends. My family I am the middle of 7 kids mostly girls so thats mostly why I have more female friends because they are more understanding also when I came out as BI only my female friends and only 3 of my male friends stuck around to help when I had to tell my parents. My father doesnt like it and my mom has come to terms.  The main person who raised me was my grandma as well as I had my friend had to temporarily adopt me because my parents when I grew up were not the best my parents did hit me and they drank alot. My parents are also divorced. Now the third is the Trust issues first its because of my family like I said they were not the best. Second was that in high school i had a girl who was a stalker and tried to ruin my life by trying to file false charges on me and tried getting me in jail because of me not wanting to be in a relationship. the third is the fact i have had two long term relationships and the first one ended because she was sleeping with my best friend the other broke up with me in front of my family on my birthday. Now lets get to another thing thats wrong with me because im getting all this off my chest now i am dyslexic as well as i have some memory problems dew to the abuse. i also have serious depression which as of lately i dont have medication due to my insurance being canceled. So sometimes i can get really moody and defensive.

 

Now onto the new update stuff I currently moved to my godfathers house in pa and helping to fix it up for him and finally have my own home. Right now tho i am dealing with helping my mom trying to get my godson out of a dangerous home where his mother is a drug addict and the father (my brother) left him once he was born. Also been trying to get myself back on my medication on anti depression because i thought i didnt need it but with all this drama and stuff going on i need it again. Also another reason why i need it is the fact that over the past 2 months i have lost 3 family members and one friend killed himself.

New update as of the beginning of september i had to move back to help take care of my dad he had another stroke and i found out that he hasnt had health care watch do to them changing his insurence this year. so im back home having to help take care of my dad and go on the hunt for a home thats closer to him so i can be near by. also ill be working a new work scheduel so sleep is all over the map atm. so please be patient if it says im online and i dont reply it may be i passed out infront of the laptop again.

 

So i hope this clears the air on alot of things so i ask if you have read this after saying you read it tell me your favorite videogame or movie. For me my favorite game is kingdom hearts my favorite movie is puppet master series.